First Love, Addicted To You

Planting The Seed.

Jaxon

I had a massive problem with alcohol.

It was the only thing that didn't judge me or answer me back.

That and the fact it took all my pain away. 

I headed back home that night to find Ria packing her bag's.

She said she had had enough of my drunken ass, Said she wasn't my mother that she wasn't going to look after a grown ass man child.

I couldn't help but burst out laughed at her!

My drunk ass found it hilarious.
'Well..' I thought to myself 'That's easier for me, Now I can be with Sofia and our daughter, and No one is getting hurt.' I felt smug.

Ezra just gave me his judgy eye's and headed up to bed.

I passed out shortly after Ria walked out on me.
I was a fucking mess.

I woke up the next morning with a really bad hangover.

I started work 45 minutes after I woke up.

I went and ran myself a cold shower, Headed downstairs to get Ezra's medication and a glass of water with a side of toast.

I took them up to him, Before I had to head to work.

I walked into his bedroom, He looked peaceful sleeping.

'Is this what you look like when you die?' I asked myself.
I already knew what dead people looked like but it was hard to imagine it as my brother.

"Ezra, Your tablets and breakfast are ready" I gently coaxed him awake.
I handed the water and pills to to him.

"I don't need a baby sitter" he said grumpily, Yawning.
"Sofia and Ezmaya are coming to visit me in a few hours too." He added.

I smiled "That should be nice, I'm off to work"

I was planning to move Sofia and Ezmaya in later that day.
I hadn't told Ezra yet.

I headed off downstair.
I picked my keys up out of the glass bowl and headed outside to the car.

The leaves were falling off the tree's that day.

I got In my car and I had to put the heating straight on,
'It's so cold this morning' I thought to myself.

I decided to head to Costa drive thru before I went to work to walm me up.

I texted Sofia

Jaxon; Pack your shit, Be ready at 5

Sofia; I'm busy Jaxon, You know? With being a parent!  

I knew at this point she was angry with me but what was knew.

I got to work.

I felt a bit uneasy that day, Like something was missing.

Maybe I was scared of becoming a Dad for real.
The fact a tiny baby depended on me, I was petrified.

For some reason, I hadn't even thought about Ria.
When me and Sofia split up I could never get her off my mind.

Maybe Ria wasn't the one after all, She had never made me feel how Sofia made me feel.

It was almost 3 o'clock.
I had finished the autopsies on 3 bodies.

I decided to clock off early to get my girls, Sofia didn't have a choice in the matter.

I headed to Jessica's house.