First Love, Addicted To You

The Biggest Mistake.

Jaxon

The sofa was giving me serious back problems.

Sofia never asked me to sleep on the sofa but I had broken her heart and the best thing to do was give her some space.

It had been days since I had been able to just hold her, kiss her tell her everything's going to be okay.

I really wanted to turn to alcohol them last few days but I hadn't.

I kept my cool even thought it was killing me inside.

I was so glad it was the weekend.

I was going to take Esmaya out and let her mummy rest, I just want to get back in Sofia good books.

I hated the awkward silences when she walked past me down the hall, Or the fact I spend every night downstairs on my own, She wouldn't even look at me.

The new guy was alright.

He asked if  Sofia and I were okay and if he needed to do anything to help.

I still didn't trust him around my Sofia though.

I went upstairs and had a shower before going into the nursery to wake my princess up.

I couldn't help but think about fucking Sofia in the shower, I remembered the good old days where nothing worried us, the days she barley knew who I was.

I quickly walked my self off, and got dressed.

I walked into Ezmaya's nursery.
She was awake trying to grab her mobile,
"Hello daddy's little girl, Shall we go out" I said to her as I picked her up.

"Come on then beautiful" I got her dressed in a beautiful pink dress with little white tights and a pink and white head bands she looked adorable.

I couldn't help but take a couple of photos of her.
I put her into her car seat and made her bag up with bottles and nappies and wipes and headed out the door.

I strapped her in the front seat with her daddy and we headed off to the mall.

"I thought we could treat mummy to some nice gifts and some flowers with daddy wages" I said to Ezmaya in the car.
"Just something little not to pricey because we're watching the pennies.."

I got a text from Sofia

Sofia; When are you being Ezmaya back?

Jaxon; we're just out next Hour or so.

Sofia; Okay.

Even our messages were blunt she would only talk to me if it was based on our baby.

I hated this is was tearing me completely apart.

We finished shopping and headed home it had been such a nice day just me and Ezmaya, I didn't want it to end we were just missing mommy.

As we got in I left a little note for Sofia I wrote

'Dear mommy,
I know you've been sad for the last few days, but I love you so so much thank you for looking after my tininess,
Love Ezmaya x

I left it on the bed with Ezmaya asleep next to the bed In her car seat.

I hoped she would appreciates it.
I knew it wasn't going to change how she felt about me but it wasn't off me it was off our daughter.

Later that day she really pissed me off, Shouting at me about buying things when we couldn't afford it.

I was the problem here, I should just leave while I could.

she didn't need me any more, I was just bad for her and Ezmaya.

I knew h had done wrong but I physically didn't kill her mother!

For all this agro I wish I fucking did, Never did I think Sofia would ever speak to me like I was nothing!
Right then wasn't the girl I had fallen in love with.

I left in a complete mess and she didn't even come after me.
Was this the end of us?

I went to the pub, I know I said I stopped drinking but I was so stressed out I needed something to take the edge away.

I arrived at the pub with a face like thunder, There I was again because of Sofia.
It was just drinking to took the edge off..

I ordered a couple of whiskey on the rocks and a couple of shots and you wouldn't believe who was there.

Only fucking Ryder!
She looked like she had a bad day too.

"Bad day? Did you not manage to find anything else to arrest me for?" I asked her laughing.

Ryder rolled her eyes. "That's not my priority right now. I'll have a vodka and coke please" she asked the bar tender

"Ah, relationship issues?" I was curious.

Ryder downed her drink. "Yeah you can say that again.."

I needed someone to talk to. "Isn't it such hard work being in a relationship, This is why I was single for most of my life.."

Ryder smirked "until you met that young girl?"

I nodded. "Well yeah, I never wanted to fall in love. She is the first person that's made me feel like I was normal."

Ryder pursed her lips. "Mhmm.. Same with Ria. Did you ever want something so bad and never thought you would get there?" She asked me.

She was making conversation.. With me! The world must be flat.

"Oh yeah definitely and now I'm thinking was it all worth it? The secrets, the mood swings, always being in the wrong!" I vented to her.

"I feel you there. I don't have a clue what I've done but Ria is definitely keeping secrets she's completely changed her body language towards me." Ryder sounded down.

"I've slept on the sofa for the past week." I said hoping to cheer her up.

We laughed together.

Ryder sighed. "Want another shot?"

I nodded. "You don't even need to ask."

After several shot, We got up and began dancing on the floor.
'The women that has tried so hard to send me down isn't all that bad' I thought to myself 'she's actually quite fit too.'

BUT she's a lesbian, It wouldn't ever happen would it! And I had my Sofia.

She had got some moves.
I'm not going to lie, we were dancing for hours and drinking the bar clean.

'It's a good job I ain't paying for all this.' I thought to myself as I checked my phone hoping Sofia was wondering where I was.

There was nothing, Maybe she didn't care at all, maybe I shouldn't care.

I went in for a kiss on Ryder and luckily she kissed me back.

Soon we ended up in the toilets in the club, and she pulled down her panties and turned herself around lifting her dress up.

'Shit this is happening.' I thought while sliding my dick into her, is this what it feels like to fuck a lesbian?

It wasn't too bad considering we hated each others guts.
Maybe this would get the bitch off my back, If I gave her a good seeing to.

I made sure she was screaming from me fucking her behind, Showing her what she was missing by being a lesbian.

Just for a second, While she was right in front of me, I thought I could just quickly put my hand around her throat and squeeze and she wouldn't even know what I was doing.

I could leave her here, I could officially get Ryder out of the picture... But then I cummed and it was over.

I didn't want to strangle her anymore, if anything I wanted to get out of there as quick as possible.

How I just done the worst thing ever?

I just slept with the worst enemy.

And honestly. I wouldn't recommend it...