If one day in your life has ten hours, it's a lot. Sleep for twelve hours, laying in bed, do nothing, going to toilet and shower, breath, live without any purpose and that's about three hours more. If you eat, if you cook, put in two hours more. Nine hours left and you choose Facebook, Candy Crush, going out with friends, not counting the time that you got to go to school and work. Shortly, you don't have that much time.
Me, i always have twenty-four hours.
Full twenty-four hours, twenty-four hours heavy minute by minute, watching out if your breath can run all the way like the cigarette inhale through your mouth, down your neck into your stomach and then breathing it out through nose. Twenty-four hours without any distractions, twenty-four hours being alone, twenty-four hours of my senses as tight as strings because they've worked for six or seven years without a minute of break. Twenty-four hours i sat at my computer: must be writting, must be working - just sticking to the computer screen - have a little fun- also with a computer screen. Talking with friends always happened via computer screen too. Head running but the body was numb, the heavy cloud was on me like a blanket on my bed, always rolled tightly and heavy in one corner of a room.
[24 hours] x [365 days] x [7 years] = 61 320 hours = 3 679 200 minutes = 220 752 000 seconds of everything but also of nothing.
Stimulants, pills, alcohol and the other stupid things - shortly all the drugs - were to me like things causing me to dream.
Alcohol gives me freedom, Tem gives me colors, Candy gives me a personality and Ke gives me a scenery.
In my opinion a human being can lose the ability to sleep but can't have the inability to dream. And it's not some kind of a dreamy dream but a dream with scientific meanings, the thing that a human being needs to rearrange their thoughts, feelings and puzzle together from everyday things. It's a „restart button" from our brain, from our nerves from our body operating system. If you are not able to sleep for one or two days, your body will be in pain, your mind will become numb and you will only be waiting for the moment to put your body down and go to sleep. I couldn't sleep for my whole life. That's why i need stimulants. It gives me a feeling like having a „clinical death" that everyone gets when they are sleeping, i need to get out of my subconscious.
It's up to you to decide to not listen to the addict but i can't stand the life with so many dreams without even having one dream.
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