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Part 15

30.8.2010, i arrived to Singapore. Sitting on plane, not being able to think about anything, both the mind and body empty until this day. Arriving to the airport, going to the taxi place, showed up the logo of my school so they can drive me there. Arriving i had to go around again looking for someone who can speak vietnamese so i could find a place to live. „At the dormitory, ok?" I nodded. So i went to dormitory to live and the next day i went to school.

First few months in Singapore were a series of nightmares that have come to life. When i was at home i was a girl that would sit with my legs crossed watching tv and when the tv remote control fell down my maid would come and pick it up right away and put it in my hand then she would ask me if i wanted some buttered corn. Suddenly being dropped in a strange place faraway from home, full of english speaking people only, but according to my mother: „I already chose the school and the major for you the only thing that you have to do is study." I didn't even knew how to pour hot water into instant noodles, sometimes they would all swell up, sometimes i would chew a seasoning package that were forgotten and then drop the noodles and burn my thighs.

About my studies, due to the rebellious teenage years, dropping everything i was left with many things to learn again. I struggled to study and even more when everything was in english only.I was supposed to be sad, to be in pain, but in fact i was panicking so much i felt nothing. I didn't know anything, i didn't know from where should i start and finally when i started to catch up, more than one year have already passed. The first days, i had to learn to wash my hair alone, look for the difference between the detergent and conditioner, gain the knowledge about how much a bunch of vegetables costs. Many, many first things for me.

The only consolation that i had at the time was Tuan Jun. Disappearing quickly telling everyone that i'm moving to Singapore suddenly my friends thought that i was joking. Only Tuan Jun was online every night to talk with me. To be honest, if there was no Tuan Jun at the time i would probably die right away.

Every night i was online, Tuan Jun was online and Tuan Jun would ask: „How was your day today?"30/9/2010:How was your day today?I was ok.1/10/2010How was your day today?I was ok.2/10/2010How was your day today?I was ok.3/10/2010How was your day today?I was ok.

But still Tuan Jun was always online at the same time always asking the same question. [Every night for 4 hours] x [60 second for a minute : 3 seconds for one word] = 29200 asking me the question that kept me alive.

Slowly i was able to get up from my bed in dormitory, was able to put my feet down to brush my teeth and then found friends that i could go to dance practice with.

Irony or luck whatever has to come will come. Right after i was able to walk with my feet, i always fell down into stimulant fights.

The first time, stupid like an addict, whatever came my way, i took it. Whatever could make me faint for a while. By the Singapore law only having some kind of stimulant can make you go to jail already, and me how could i even have something good if i didn't even knew anyone here. After some time after i was less stupid and had a little bit of money i found out about ecstasy, LSD, magic mushrooms. I was already addicted so..

Well, whatever, i thought to myself. Switching to stimulants because maybe it was time for me to stop drinking alcohol.