Amidst the Rage

Chapter 08

Chapter 08

Mabilis kong tinakbo ang pagitan papunta kay Tiff. God! I miss her so much. I even kissed her cheeks sa sobrang kasabikan.

"Kadiri ka! Lubayan mo nga akong tanginang ka!" asik niya sa akin.

How I miss her cussing machine lips so much! I pouted and stared at her cutely. My eyes are twinkling because of her presence.

"Kilala mo ba 'to Tiff? Hired yan sa libro e. Pinakita niya sa akin yung text message." sabi ni Madi.

Napalingon ako kay Madi na pinapanood pa pala kami. She smiled at me a bit. Inilinga ko na ang paningin ko at nakitang nanlalaki ang matang tinignan ako ni Tiff. "Sandali lang Mads ha. Kausapin ko lang 'to." sabi ni Tiff bago ako hinila papunta sa loob ng kwartong pinaglabasan niya. "What do you think you're doing!?!" bungad niya sa akin.

Napatakip ako ng aking tenga dahil sa kaniyang sigaw. Sinamaan ko siya ng tingin bago ngumuso. "Masama bang bisitahin ka? Ilang araw na kitang hindi nakikita tanga! Anong tingin mong gagawin ko? Magpapa-fiesta? Bobong 'to." sabi ko sa kaniya.

"Umuwi kana Syden utang na loob! This place is not for you! Do you even know what are doing here?!" galit nitong sabi.

"I'm not. I just know that I am an icon? What was that anyway?" naguguluhang tanong ko sa kaniya.

"Fuck! Just go home! Huwag mo nang alamin at 'Wag na 'wag kang pupunta dito kahit kailan Syden! Hindi kita mapapatawad!" she spatted.

Tila may kumirot sa aking dibdib nang sabihin niya iyon. Ayaw niya ba ako dito? Kailangan ko ba talagang lumayo sa kaniya? Kailangan niya ba talagang maging mag-isa lang?

I bit my lower lip and blatantly blinked to prevent myself from crying. I nodded repeatedly and smiled at her weakly. She look stressed and flustered with my sudden expression.

Maybe the thing that happened in Tito's unit might lingered in her system that's why she wanted me to get away? Maybe she wanted me to get away because she doesn't want me to meddle with her problems? I don't know, maybe that's the reason why?

"I understand," I said and nodded even though I really can't understand. "I'm sorry for impulsively wanting you to go home. I'm just not used with this situation. Us slipping apart? Definitely not in my wildest dreams." I laugh without humor then looked at her. "I'm sorry, I won't meddle with your problems anymore." I tapped her shoulder and about to leave her when she spoke up.

"You know that's not what I mean, right?" she said.

"I know." I lied. I again gave her a small smile before walking away. I really don't know what she's up to. Maybe I'll just respect her decision. I think that's the right thing to do. I sighed.

The next day I am really not feeling well. Pakiramdam ko'y may mabigat na nakadagan sa akin. Pakiramdam ko'y may kulang sa akin. Tangina! Ayoko ng ganitong pakiramdam.

"You okay?" tanong sa akin ni Heidi na aking kaklase.

"I guess so."

We were both sitting comfortably in the bench near the entrance of the school. I think this is the lobby? Well anyway mas gusto ko dito dahil mahangin at maaliwalas sa pakiramdam. At least here, I can breathe freely and think.

Kagaya ko ay mailap din si Heidi sa mga tao. She approached me first kanina upang manghingi lamang ng papel pero sa huli ay sinabi niyang magkaibigan na daw kami. Speed lang? Well she's the one who insist so who am I to decline it anyway? She is sexy actually. She has a big boobs, big butt, and she's also witty. I personally like her mole near her eyebrows like seriously, she looks dazzling as fuck.