🎵Sabi ko na nga ba
Dapat no'ng una pa lamang
Dina umasa
Di naniwala
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Sebastian
I was already preparing to leave the company when Kara came in. Napabuntong hinga na lamang ako ng lumapit siya sa akin. She hugged me tight.
" Kara" She is crying again.
" Ano Seb. Siya parin ba? Hanggang ngayon siya parin? Bakit ba hindi mo ako magawagawang mahalin katulad ng dati? You love me Seb. Alam kong mahal mo parin ako. Why don't we give us another chance? Matagal ko ng hinihiling sa 'yo na bigyan natin ng pangalawang pagkakataon ang relasyon natin. Why can't we?" How many times do I need to explain things to her.
" Because my heart only belongs to one woman, Kara. Si Marian lang. Please move on. I already have a son with her" I explained.
" So ganon na lang iyon Seb? Nahanap mo na siya tapos ano? Paano naman ako Seb. Ilang taon akong naghintay na mahalin mo ulit tapos iyan ang isusumbat mo sa akin?" I can feel her pain but just as how much I wanted to comfort her, I know my boundaries.
" I already ended things between us few years ago, Kara. I made it clear with you that we won't be fixing our relationship" Shit! She's crying as fuck!
" Bakit Seb! Ano bang meron si Marian na wala ako. Ako ang pinili mo noon pero hindi mo ako pinanindigan! You turned your back from her remember?" And that was the dumbest thing I did. Dahil naging gago ako.
" I did. But I already have told you that it made me realize how much I love her." Iyon ang totoo. It had been a shitty day for me. It made me realize how much of a dumb asshole I was. It made me unworthy of her. But still, I will pursue her.
" Come on Seb. Kaya mo nga hindi siya nahanap kase hindi kayo para sa isa't isa" I really want to say bullshit on that. She might have been doing something behind my back.
" That's why I will find whoever is behind it." I saw how her face paled at what I've just said. Napahilamos ako sa aking mukha.
" I don't want to do the same mistake my father did years ago. I don't want another lawsuit on my shoes just because I want to take revenge on someone who turned me into that someone I don't know" I said the truth.
She kept quiet for awhile
" May family dinner mamaya. Inaasahan ka ni daddy" She looked at me.
" I won't be going with you."
" How cruel of you Seb. You cannot just ditch me. You already promised me last week that you would come with me later. Nakita mo lang si Marian nag-iba na ang desisyon mo."
" I never did agree on going with you, Kara." Disagreement was painted on her face.
Fuck! I don't want to make her cry but she should understand that not everything is always on the table. Hindi lahat ng gusto niya ay masusunod.
I always see her cry but that did not give any effect on my system.
" Stop crying Kara. Those tears won't work on me anymore" I said in finality.
Marian
KASALUKUYAN kong binibihisan si Sean dahil mamaya ay darating si Seb para sunduin si Sean. Napagdesisyunan ko ng huwag sumama kahit pa pinipilit ni Seb. I already made up my mind that I won't be going with them. What for? There's no reason for me to go with them. Hindi madaling tumanggap muli at magpatawad. Iyung sugat ng nakaraan ay mahirap maghilom.
