Back to the Start (Book 3 of the "Fearless" series) [Completed]

Chapter 26 - Home

Liverpool, England
September 28, 2013

[Emmileigh]

Originally I'd been nervous about coming back because of how I'd just up routed and left the tour, leaving everyone. But now I was more nervous than ever.

I'd been packing my stuff up when Karsyn told me to get online the other night. Not really thinking anything of it, I did, and booted up my messenger programme, where Karsyn sent me a video file the moment I was signed in.

The video literally made my heart break all over.

Knowing that Donnie broke down because of my actions made me sick. And seeing him like that, crying on stage... well it made me realise that even though leaving had been slightly good for me, I really should've just stayed and sorted my marriage out.

And in the days that had passed, I'd pretty much tortured myself watching that video over and over, seeing emotion all over his face, seeing him looking through the crowd like he was looking for someone.

Me.

And then I thought about what Karsyn had said, that Donnie refused to perform Cover Girl until I was back. That made me realise that I needed to get back as soon as I could. The fact that this was now affecting Donnie's work, with Donnie being the work perfectionist that he is, I needed to fix this.

So here I was, sitting at Euston train station waiting for a train to Liverpool Lime Street Station. And from there, I would take the ten minutes walk to the arena. I already knew they were there, Karsyn had text me saying they'd taken the overnight ferry from Dublin.

And from there... I would try to make things back to normal.

[/Emmileigh]

[Karsyn]

Going to see an Irish obstetrician is just weird as hell. And this lady being so short, I felt like I was seeing a leprechaun. My stomach started cramping me on the way to Dublin, so the first thing we did was set out to see a doctor who said everything was fine. She said I didn't need to be traveling for much longer, which I wasn't, and said the baby looked perfect.

Apparently the cramping was just from me expending. I'm bigger now at this point than I ever was with Haley. That just got me to thinking about alot of things. What if this baby is bigger? What if I can't have her naturally and I have to have surgery?

It's all I could really think about the past few days besides Donnie's apparent hatred for me. It's gotten so bad that I'm not letting Haley hang out with Elijah and I haven't seen the twins in two days.

I just wish Emmileigh would hurry up. She said today was the day. I knew after she saw that video of "Cover Girl" she would cave. I knew from the moment he walked to the mic stand it was going to be different, which is why I recorded it.

She needs to hurry up and get here.

[/Karsyn]

[Donnie]

"DAD, Logan's crying! And Savannah smells!"

I rolled over on the bed in the bus and buried my head under the pillow. I was tired.. so tired, yet I couldn't sleep. Mom had told me I needed to spend time with the kids and left to spend the day sightseeing.

I wasn't feeling up for anything.

"DAD!"

"Ugh.. COMING!" I rolled off the bed, pulling on some sweatpants over my boxers before walking through the bus to the sitting area. Savannah was laying on her front, playing with a toy and stinking the place up, and Elijah had Logan on his lap. "Where's the diaper bag?"

Elijah shrugged, making me groan as I moved a bunch of clothes and things before finding it.

"This place is a mess."

I looked at Elijah. "Well you know how to clean." I muttered, sitting on the floor and pulling a clean diaper and wipes from the bag.

"So do you. But all you do is lay in bed sulking. I wish Emmi was here." Elijah sighed.

"Yea? Well me and you both. But she's not, so deal with it." I started changing Savannah's diaper, before sitting her up in her clean diaper.

"Grandma said that the babies need breakfast."

I groaned and climbed off the floor. "Anything else she leave for me?"

Elijah nodded. "Yea, this." He handed me a note before putting Logan on the floor and walking off to the bunks. I turned the note around and sighed.

Donnie,
Sweetheart, I know you're sad right now, and there is nothing more I wish for than for Emmi to come back and bring that smile to your handsome face, but honey... your children need you. You might not think this is the right time for this, but you need to get out of the funk you're in and focus on them babies.

As much as I love taking care of them, that's what I'm doing, all the time. You need to spend time with them.

So rather than spend the day out.. I've decided to take a few days out and meet you in London.

You will be fine, and don't worry about me.

I'll call you later baby.
Love, Mom xxxxx