That Charismatic Rapper|FIN

Chapter 32- SAMS

Josh

Kakauwi ko lang mula sa trabaho. I am walking upstairs when I heard sounds from the master's bedroom. Tunog na parang umiiyak.

Kahit pagod na ako ay hindi ako nagdalwang-isip na tumakbo. With all the strength I have, I run to the master's bedroom.

“Hey, what happened? Is there something wrong? May masakit ba? Dadalhin na ba kita sa ospital? Babe, tell me”  I asked worriedly. Lalo naman syang pumalahaw ng iyak at pagkatapos ay lumapit sa akin.

I attempted to hug her pero iniwasan nya lang ako. Sa halip na isang mainit na yakap at halik ang matanggap ko ay isang nakakabinging sampal ang ibinigay nya sa akin. “What the f—” I am unable to finish my words when I saw her crying. Years are flowing down her cheeks .

“G*go ka!” She said that made my forehead creased. What the! Anong nangyayari sa isang to? I tried to wipe her tears pero tinampal nya ang mga kamay ko. “What the hell is wrong with you, woman?!” Hindi ko na napigilan ang pagtaas ng boses ko. Alam nyo yung pakiramdam na pagod na pagod ka na sa trabaho tapos ganito pa ang bubungad sa'yo pag-uwi?! Nakakaubos ng pasensya at nakakainit ng ulo!

Nagising ako mula sa malalim kong pag-iisip nang makinig ko ang mumunting hikbi nya. Hearing her sob, I felt that someone is gripping my heart tightly. Akmang lalapit ako sa kanya pero humakbang sya paatras.

“Ayaw mo na ba?” She asked me. Napakunot ako ng noo. Alin ang ayaw ko na? Where is she pertaining to?

“Hindi ka makasagot kasi nga ayaw mo na...” She looked into my eyes with tears still flowing down from her eyes to her cheeks. “Ayaw mo na kasi mukang balyena na 'ko. I'm very fat and I have this protruding belly. You're staying with me because of our baby. You're looking at me as if I'm just a responsibility...” I think I'm getting it. Hinayaan ko syang magrant ng magrant.

Limang buwan na kasi ang tiyan nya kaya medyo malaki na ang baby bump. Nasabihan na ako ng doktor nya tungkol dito. Her ob-gyne said that she'll be more emotional at makakaramdam rin sya ng insecurity. I know she's thinking that she's ugly and fat, but it's not true!

She's still sexy. She still have her curves. Nagkalaman lang sya dahil nga buntis sya. She's still beautiful, even more beautiful than the first time I laid my eyes on her. Day by day, nagiging mas maganda sya sa paningin ko.

Nilapitan ko. She tried to stop me pero hinuli ko ang mga kamay nya. I embrace her, then I kissed her temple. I look into her eyes. I know my face is reflecting the feelings that I want to show her, love, security, sincerity and the determination to stay by her side. “ I love you” I said. That eight-letter word work as if it's magic. Her face softened. Naramdaman ko ang pagyakap nya sa akin at pagkatapos ay sumubsob sya sa dibdib ko.

I kissed the top of her head before closing my eyes. Para akong cellphone na nai-charge, biglang nagkabuhay. It feels like my exhaustion fade away. With her this close to me, I feel energize, safe, contented and happy as fvck!

She's Syringe Aidcillin Montevessa—Santos, my wife, my love, my home and my sanctuary.