My Zac Monteverdi [COMPLETED]

PROLOGUE

DISCLAIMER: This story is a work of fiction. Names, places, incidents, businesses and other events in this story is purely came from the author's imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead is unintentional and coincidental.

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Prologue

EYES are closed, But my gist are wide-awake, Naramdaman kong may kamay na humaplos sa kamay ko na nagpakiliti sa buong sistema ko. My chest are aching too much and I am so close to crying, but I stopped it, not now.

Kaya mo yan, Amy!

I didn't know that pretending in front of the man you love would be this hard, but I need to do this, I should do this.

Kung kinakailangang magsakripisyo para lang maayos ang lahat, gagawin ko. Kahit ayaw ng puso ko, kahit masakit.

Slowly, I pretend that I'm from sleep, unti unti kong idinilat ang aking mga mata ng may kasama pang paghikab para mas lalong kapani-paniwalang galing nga ako sa pagtulog. Una kong nakita ang namumungay nyang mga mata na unti unting lumiwanag ng mapansing nagmulat ako. Im such a great pretender, maybe I can audition to become an artist.

I scanned the whole room with my eyes, The wall is painted with clean white, It's so clear that I'm in a hospital, but it's vague, because I shouldn't be here, I am not sick or what, it's only an act. An act that I didn't expect I would've do.

"Thank god you're awake!" The man infront me talk. Kinunot ko ang noo ko para mas lalong kapani-paniwala ang pagdadrama ko. I badly want to hug him but I stopped myself.

"Asan ako?" I confusedly asked as if things are blurred on my mind when I know, it's clear.

"Andito ka sa hospital. Naaksidente ka kasi, mabuti at nadala ka ni Mommy dito agad..Si Mommy ang nagbalita sa akin." He explained. "And, dalawang araw kanang tulog."

His Mom. His mata-pobre mother who drag me to this kind of pretending where all are really fake.

Money and power can make every fake things real.

"And.." I coldly said. "And..who are you?"I added.

I saw how pain landed on his eyes, and that makes my heart sorer, is this really the right thing to do?

"You didn't know me?" He asked, pain is evident on his piercing hawk-eye.

I nod. "I'm sorry,hindi talaga kita kilala."

The nurse called him kaya iniwan nya ako. Nakikita ko silang nag-uusap sa hamba ng pintuan. I suddenly wanted to burst out a laugh. The nurse..Ang binayaran ng mama nya para paniwalaing tama ang aking pagkalimot sa kanya.

"You have an amnesia."He declared as soon as he came back to me. He hold my hand and I tried not to create any emotions when inside me, I'm almost fluttering with his warm touch.

"Oh my god! Kaya wala akong naaalala!" I pretend to panicked, I tried to stand but he stop me.

"No, rest. You will remember everything in time, baby." He said. He hold my hand and I felt a soft kiss there. I immediately throw away his hand.

"Sino ka ba talaga? Sino ka sa buhay ko?" I directly asked.

"I am your boyfriend."He whispered then touch my hair and gently massage it.

It touched my heart, I immediately want to stop this pretending. But I need to get hold of it.

"No,its not true!" I hissed.

I saw how his expression change and how his jaw dropped at what I spatted, it figuratively gives pain in me, but I need to do this, even if it's hurt.

"Hush, baby.Hindi kita minamadali na maalala ako."

I tried to sit. Then I felt him embrace me, He hugged me tightly. I badly want to hug him back but that would be too obvious. I only act like I don't care. Sapat na to, sapat nang maramdaman ko ang init ng kanyang yakap at haplos.

Dala dala ang aking maleta,I left his condo. But before I could go, I felt his large arms encircled my waist, He hugged me from behind. My tears badly wants to flow but as much as I can, I'll stopped it. Besides, I'm good at it. But all of the veins in my body are obviously at sting. I hope soon, it all went fine, And I'm also hoping that I could endure this prickle.

"No, you will never leave." saad nya. Nanatili akong nakatalikod dahil ayokong makita nya ang lungkot sa aking mga mata.

"Huwag mo akong pigilan,hindi kita kilala!" Halos pasigaw kong diin habang pinipigilan ang paglabas ng garalgal kong tinig.

"Kaya nga, hindi mo pa nga ako maalala aalis kana?" He asked while I'm aching, imagining his face because of his weary, husky and hoarse voice.

I am so sorry, Zac.

"Yes! Kasi hindi na kita maaalala pa!"

"Please baby, don't leave me. I can't endure that." The huskiness of his voice are still, but I can sense that his voice now are more weary. "Please baby, I love you.-"

"I don't love you!" I trailed off a lie, and the pain didn't fade away. Instead, it become worse when he let go of his hold on mine, As if he's now letting me go. It shattered my heart into small pieces. He's now giving me a permission to leave him. Di'ba dapat makahinga ako ng maluwang dahil pinahihintulutan nya na akong umalis, pero bakit parang mas nadudurog ako?

Oh why do you, Amy? When at the first place, you're the one who ask for it? Are you insane? Why enduring pain when you're the one who seek for it, You itself are the one who caused pain on your heart, and now you're hurting?

I stopped my thoughts before I could reveal the truth, The truth that can ruined me, my family.

So in no time, I immediately walked away without glancing at him. I shouldn't be, because it may cause my breakdown in front of him, and I'm scared, I don't want that happened, Pwede akong umiyak, pwede kong isigaw at ilabas lahat ng sakit at mga hinanakit ko, pero hindi sa harapan nya, hindi sa harap ng taong pinapahalagahan ko ng sobra.

Nang sa wakas ay makalayo na,agad akong nagpara ng sasakyan pauwi sa probinsya namin. And when I finally reached the passenger seat, All the tears that I've been resisting, Drip uncontrollably. If only I'm in a peaceful high mountain, I would probably shout this all. I can't take it anymore but who am I to give up? I really want to, but... I can't ------ no, scratched that, I can, I want to, but I should not. I. SHOULD. NOT.

Habang nasa byahe walang tigil ang buhos ng luhang kanina ko pa pinipigilan.

It feels so nostalgic, but now is quite different, months ago I came back on my home with a smile proof on my lips, but now? No smile's escaped. Instead of smile, tears are more envisaged.

I wiped my tears but my cheeks didn't ran dry, because my tears keep on shedding. The other passengers are curiously looking at me while others didn't care. Well, their looks can't stop me now, cause even me. Can't control my tears anymore.

The beautiful view outside was very evident but I just couldn't appreciate it. I'm in deep sorrow. Why is it that every love story has it's own villain? Why do they need to do that anyway, why there were people who are greed in power and doesn't want someone to be happy. Why such have a people like that, a people who's happy pill are to see someone's suffering.

Why they can't let us be happy?

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