My Zac Monteverdi [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER THIRTY

AUTHOR'S NOTE; HELLO, SANA OKAY PA KAYO HAHA, WAG KAYO IIYAK HA HUWAG NYO KO GAYAHIN P*TCHI HAHAHA. ANYWAYS, KUNG NATATANDAAN NIYO PA ANG PROLOGUE, NANGYARI NA SIYA SA PREVIOUS CHAPTER. GOAL KO TAPUSIN TO BEFORE 2020 ENDS SO STAY TUNED LANG KAYO. SALAMAT NGA PALA SA PAGSUBAYBAY KAHIT ANG BAGAL KO MAG UPDATE NYEHEHE. MAHAL KO NAMAN KAYO KAYA DI BALE NA CHARS😂 AH BASTA, KUNG SINO KA MANG NAGBABASA NITO, SABI KO "I LOVE YOU" YIIII❤

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Chapter Thirty

Zacarius Denver Ferrer Monteverdi

"TAHAN na, dude," Kevin's worried voice made me laughed because of self pity while tears are still falling.

Para akong bading na iyak ng iyak dito sa tabi ni Kevin. They can call me gay if they want but this is my only way in expressing my emotions. Hindi ko alam na ganito pala kasakit maiwan.

"Tang-ina, ang sakit!" I shouted.

Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang hapdi sa puso ko sa mga panahong kasama ko siya sa condo ko, na habang inalalayan at inaalagaan ko siya, balewala nalang sa kaniya. That feeling when I tried to looked at her eyes and saw nothing, nawala na iyong mga mata niyang punong puno ng pagmamahal sa akin dati, the sparks gone because she forgotten me.

"Sa lahat ng puwedeng mangyari, bakit iyon pang makakalimutan niya ako?"

"Just give her enough time dude, maaalala ka rin niya."

Time, she keeps on asking that on me, hinayaan ko naman siya noon basta ang importante maparamdam ko sa kaniya kung gaano siya kaespesyal sa akin. Minamahal ko siya sa araw-araw sa paraang hindi ko siya masasakal, pero bakit kapag ganito ay lagi siyang lumalayo sa akin. Am I that hard to love?

I was damn afraid when my mom called and said that Amethyst got into a car accident, I was taking my exam that time so I made it more fast just to went to the hospital where Amy got confined.

My relief when the doctor said that she's already fine is overflowing. Not until she got shocked when she woke up, she didn't recognized me, she forgotten me. She has amnesia and that made me trembled and fucking scared.

I poured a liqour on my glass and immediately drank it. The bitterness of the liqour ran through my throat, mag isa sa condo, walang kasama at karamay. I drank and drank again, hoping the pain to go away but I only got more hurt when memories from yesterday flashed.

She being attitude, her smile, her laughed, her kiss. I longed everything about her.

Please baby remember me, come back to me, I'm longing for you.

Siguro matatanggap ko kahit gaano kasakit na nakalimutan na niya ako, kasi aksidente iyon eh. I can solve my heart, I can deal with it, kaya kong gawin lahat maibalik ko lang ang ala-ala niya, I can make her remember everything about us. Ngunit kung hindi ako magtatagumpay dun, I'll do the rest.

I'll do what I did from the very start, I'll do everything just to make her fall for me again, just to make her love me again. But how can I do it when she already left?

I know her very well, if she needs time she'll do it. If she needs space she will never face me, now she forgot that I'm her boyfriend, that I'm the one she love.

There's nothing more painful when you saw the back of the person you love slowly fading from your sight, leaving you.

"Zacarius Denver! Wake up!"my mother's angry voice awakened me.

"What now mom?!"

"Oh my god son! Bumangon ka diyan at may klase ka pa!"

"I'm tired, wala akong gana,"I weakly said, still lying on the bed.

Tamad na tamad na akong magpatuloy, my love was gone, my inspiration, my motivation and my strength left me. Wala na iyong taong laging nagbibigay sa akin ng lakas para bumangon ng maaga at magpatuloy sa buhay, wala na iyong kumokompleto sa araw ko, wala na iyong nagbibigay ng lakas ko. My both strength and weakness had gone. I'm very tired, how can I continue this life without the woman who became my world?

So tama nga, hindi nararapat gawing mundo ang dapat tao lang, kasi kapag nasaktan ka, mahihirapan ka ng bumangon at magpatuloy sa buhay.

"Stop waisting your time for that woman! She already left you because she don't love you,"she exclaimed.

That made me woke up, I sat at the edge of the bed weakly. Pagkatapos ay yumuko, bumabalik na naman ang kahapong sakit, bumabalik na naman ang mga nagbabadya na tumulong luha.

"I know she loves me mom."

"She left, that means she don't love you enough."

"No, she forgotten me. She left because of her amnesia!"

Before this accident happened, kampanteng-kampante pa ako. Because she promised, nangako siyang hinding-hindi na siya iiwas pa kahit anong mangyari, she promised that she will be brave and will fight for us. But my world fall down when she left me hanging and heart are tearing into pieces, deeply wounded.

"That's what you think son,"

Agad akong napatingin sa kaniya matapos niyang sabihin ang mga katagang iyon.

"What do you mean mom?" naguguluhang tanong ko.

She suddenly throw the papers she keeps on holding earlier on the bed and out of my curiosity, I grabbed and scanned it. Only to made my heart broke more and made my sanity fall down more.

"The doctor was mistaken, the one they saw is not Amethyst case, kapangalan niya lang pala ang pasyenteng totoong nagka-amnesiya, kaunting head injury lang ang natamo ni Amy anak, but she don't have amnesia. Sinakyan niya lang ang pinalabas na resulta para maiwan ka."

Tumayo ako at padabog na tinapon ang mga papeles na iyon.

"This is not true!" I shouted.

"Iyon din ang akala ko, I double checked it son and she really don't have amnesia. Pinasundan ko siya son, she's making her way to the province and she remembers her hometown, her parents."

"Hindi niya ito magagawa sa akin! I'll chase her mom, I'll make her come back to me."

"No son! Masasaktan ka lang, sabi ng taong pinasunod ko sa kaniya, she's with someone, may kasama daw siyang ibang lalaki at mukhang masayang masaya pa nga," she scanned her phone. "Actually she sent me a pictures, do you want to see it son?"

Umiling ako habang tumutulo ang luha at namumuo na ang galit sa puso, "That's enough mom, I don't want to see it."

I don't know what to do anymore, hinang hina na ako, lugmok na lugmok na parang hindi isang lalaki.

Akala ko mahal niya ako? Akala ko ako lang? Pero bakit niya nagawa sa akin ito? Bakit siya nagsinungaling? Why she pretended that she forgotten me? To find reasons to leave and be with her new?

Kung ganoon ay hindi nga niya ako mahal, kasi nagawa niyang magsinungaling para lang makahanap ng rason na iwan ako at sumama sa iba.

Ano, guwapo ba iyon kaysa sa akin? Lamang na lamang ba sa akin?

"She pretends to forget you son, so you must forget her now,"

Maybe my mother is right, kung nakuha niyang magpanggap na nakalimutan na ako, kung nakaya niyang iwan at saktan ako, kung kinaya niyang ipagpalit ako, siguro naman kaya ko rin siyang kalimutan at palitan.

Siguraduhin mo lang Amethyst na hindi ka sasaktan ng bago mo, na hindi ka niya iiwan at paluluhain katulad ng ginawa mo sa akin, mahal na mahal kita pero hinding-hindi ko hahayaang maging marupok ako sayo, na kung sakaling babalik ka, wala ka ng makukuha pa mula sa akin.

Makakalimutan rin kita, hindi man ngayon pero nakakasiguro ako na kapag muling magtatagpo ang mga landas natin, wala ka ng makikita pang pagmamahal sa mga mata ko.

You just waisted my love, and I just waisted my time of loving a woman full of lies.

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