My Zac Monteverdi [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER THIRTY-EIGHT

Chapter Thirty-Eight

Zacarius Denver Monteverdi

I GOT so guilty at Luella's death, her parents are very disappointed at me, even my parents too. And I fully understand them, I'm at fault at kahit ako ay galit sa sarili ko dahil sa katangahang nagawa ko.

I am so down and confused that time so I did leave, to be honest nawala talaga sa isipan ko na kasama ko pala si Luella sa mga panahong iyon.

I stayed at my lolo's house for almost a month and half, pero kahit noong lumayo ay nahihirapan parin akong kalimutan ang nangyari. As much as I want to see Amethyst, it's very chaotic in my part so I stepped back.

"Apo, palaging tinatanong ng mommy mo sa akin kung kailan ka daw uuwi?" Banggit ni Lolo at inabutan ako ng isang basong kape.

"I don't know lolo," I said while receiving that cup of coffee.

"I understand you apo, I know it's hard but you need to continue your life, your dreams. Hindi ba at isa ka ng ganap na inhenyero?" Tinabihan niya ako sa pagkakaupo pagkatapos ay ibinaba ang kapeng hawak niya at tinapik tapik ang balikat ko.

"Lahat ng tao nagkakamali at nadadapa apo, ang mahalaga ay marunong tayong tanggapin ang mga maling nagawa natin at huwag hayaang gawin ulit, dapat tayong matutong bumangon muli mula sa ating pagkakadapa at patunayan ang sarili natin." Mahabang salaysay niya at ang tanging ginawa ko ay pakinggan siya.

I hugged my grandfather because his words touched my heart.

"Chase for your dreams my handsome grandson," he laughed, "You are worthy, apo."

A lonely tears escaped, naiiyak ako sa nga magagandang salitang ibinabato sa akin ni Lolo.

"You should also remember that we can't change nor stop what's embedded on our fortune. Luella died because that was God plan on her." he added.

"Thank you so much Lolo,".

"You're always welcome apo, do what makes you happy, I got your back."

After that talk, I decided to finally go back home, pagkatapos ay naisip kong dalawin ang puntod ni Luella.

Holding a flower, I placed it besides her cemented lament, my hand touch her lament for a while before I sighed heavily and started to talked.

"Pasensiya ka na Luella, hindi dapat kita pinabayaan. But I do hope that you are now peaceful there... You've been a very good friend to me Wel and I thank you for that. Kahit nung simula palang na sinabi ko ng si Amethyst ang tunay na minamahal ko ay wala akong natanggap na reklamo galing sayo. Kasi sabi mo, you love me much and you can conquer all the pain," isang luha ang sumungaw saking mga mata. "I know I keep on hurting you and I'm sorry Wel, but I want you to know that you're the best bestfriend for me. I will never forget you Wel, I promise."

Pagkatapos nun ay parang nabawasan ang bigat sa kaloob-looban ko. Kasi alam kong naiintindihan niya ako. Si Luella pa!

Ilang araw lang ay naging maayos rin ako, nagsimula na ako sa kauna-unahang project na nakuha ko bilang isang ganap na inhenyero. My Lolo's friend are starting to build a condominium unit and he picked me as the engineer.

But just few weeks later my world fall apart again. Sa hindi inaasahang pagkakataon ay makikita ko siyang muli. I entered the new opened restaurant for a quick lunch when I suddenly saw her, one of the waitresses of that restaurant.

Sa una, walang katumbas ang saya sa puso ko dahil nakita kong muli ang babaeng mahal ko pero nang makita ko siyang linapitan ng isang chef doon ay tila nagdilim ang paningin ko.

My fist clenched when they talked and laughed, it made me jealous. But my temper lost more when I saw the man's face. No doubts, it's Brian's friend.

Hindi nagtagal at umalis na ako doon, hindi ko na hinintay na makita nila ako dahil parang hindi ko na kaya. Parang pinipiga ang puso ko nang makita siyang masaya at tumatawa sa piling ng iba. Nanunuot sa balat ko ang sakit, gusto kong suntukin ang lalaking iyon pero wala akong karapatang gawin iyon.

The next day when I was national on the bookstore, I saw her. Might buying books for her course.

Dala ng bugso ng damdamin ay di ko na nakayanan pa, I directly grabbed her hands when she walked out, napasandal siya sa likuran ng kotse ko.

"Ano b-" natigil siya nang makita niya ako. "Z-zac,"

"Amethyst, let's talk,"

But she turned her backed on me and before she could step, I grabbed her hands again.

"What's wrong with you?!"She exclaimed.

"Talk to me please," I begged.

"Talk about what Zac? Wala na tayong dapat pag-usapan pa!"

"Meron pa, alam kong ako parin ang mahal mo, hindi ba may rason ka kaya mo ako iniwan?" She got stiffened, "Please baby, tell me. Why did you lied?"

"My goodness Zac! I have no reason, I left you and that's just it!" she hissed.

My jaw dropped at her sentence, pain started to build on my heart, "I know it's not true."

She laughed sarcastically, "If what's your mother had told you, then so be it! At para saan pa kung sasabihin ko Zac? You've been in many relationships after me, god, wake up!" I tried to reach for her hands but she avoided, and that hurt me more.

"Yes I did played many girls, just so I can forget you. But it's still you, it's always be you, baby."

"But still, you're love on me isn't enough to stay faithful to me." her words stabbing my heart into pieces.

And pain exploded more when I saw a tears running on her cheeks and yet I can't do anything to wipe it away.

"Baby, I love you."

She shrugged her shoulders and look at me with the same intensity she gave earlier, "Have you ever been faithful to me, Zac?"

Ako naman ngayon ang natigil.

"Have you ever been honest to me, Amethyst?"

She wipe the shedding tears using her thumbs and looked away, "Wala na tayong dapat pang pag-usapan. Find a woman who can be honest with you always Zac, because I'm not at gusto ko ring malaman mo na hindi na kita mahal." she then ran away.

My shoulders slowly dropped at her last phrase, Unshed tears fall as my heart felt the most painful feeling ever.

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