XAVIER IS DYING

Xavier is Dying: 16

Chapter 16:

Aries POV

It hurt.

Everything hurt.

Numbness was a feeling I'd grown accustomed to. No matter how many times I drank or smoked or sat out in the mind numbingly cold snow, it was never enough.

No matter how numb I felt, it still felt like a fire was ripping through every single fibre of my body. And god, did it hurt.

Ricky had more or less taken over the pack at the aid of Dante whilst I was absent. I appreciated everything they had done even if it wasn't for me.

After the ball, Molly disappeared knowing everyone was aware we weren't mates and her child was not future alpha. Ricky distanced himself after he knew I was partially responsible for his mates pain. Dante couldn't look me in the eye knowing I aided in killing his brother and the rest of the pack followed them when I disregarded my duties as alpha.

I still wasn't sure if prince Xander was really Xavier but all I knew was I couldn't let anyone know of our small discussion. I tried to go to the castle the day after the ball but I couldn't even get past the guards and then a week after the news got out he was away for royal training and when he'd be back was unknown.

I was trying so hard to just live without him, take my duties in swing and stop being so hung up on him but it was near impossible. I ached for my mate and he wasn't here. There was nothing else I could focus on. It hurt all the more knowing whatever I was experiencing now was nothing compared to how I made him feel.

Finally standing up from my office chair, I headed out, getting a few glances from pack members who were shocked to actually see me outside of my office. The crisp air breeze was nice and cool on my skin, soothing for the raging fire I felt internally.

There was always one place I went to when things were tough. The tarnished crypt. It was twisted but I found it soothing knowing this was where Xavier was last. When I came here I felt close to him, as if life wasn't all pain. Xavier helped show me the meaning in life. I hate myself everyday for taking that for granted and throwing him to the side.

I should of believed him.

There was a small cough from behind me as I stood in the clearing. Turning, I saw Ricky standing awkwardly.

"Um, I need to talk to you about something, is this a good time?" Ricky asked anxiously.

"It's as good as ever." I mumbled loud enough for him to hear.

I heard him take a few steps closer till he was standing next to me, staring at the crypt himself.

"I'll never forgive you for what you've caused but I also know you're hurting, a lot and you were once my best friend. I can't keep watching you suffer like this." Ricky explained, glancing my way.

I let out a deep sigh, looking up at the snow fallen sky.

"I know. I don't expect you, Bella or anyone to forgive me but you're right. It hurts, Ricky. I don't know why I rejected him. I was scared I guess. I always imagined my life with a nice girl to take to family gatherings, kids, everything and now that I can't have that, any of that. Not even with my mate anymore. It hurts even more especially knowing its my fault. I wanted to try, I did. I went into the woods with him having every intention of giving him and chance as my mate and hearing what I thought was lies just felt like he was making a mockery of me. A gay alpha haha. It was then I envisioned what everyone else would think and I just lost it. I regret it so much, Ricky." I explained, tears welling at my eyes.

"I know you do." Ricky replied, pulling me into a hug.

"Why did I push him away, Ricky. Why did I do that?" I asked, tears free flowing on their own now.

I felt myself shaking as sobs racked my body, Ricky holding me steady.

"Well let me ask you something crazy. That prince, you think its Xavier don't you." Ricky asked me, pulling me from the hug so he could see me.

"I know it is. He pretty much told me himself. And the mate bond, the electricity he made me feel just talking told me all I needed to know. I tried to go back but they wouldn't let me in and then he was gone. I want to try and get him back." I sighed, looking at Ricky.

"Well, if you're sure, really sure then we need to get him here. If its Xavier then being around you and Bella and his old life can open his eyes. But you can't fuck up this time. Prove to him, to everyone that you meant every word of what you just told me." Ricky explained, formulating a plan.

"of course I mean every word, I can easily prove that but how do we get the lost prince who is impossible to track, to come here." I asked confused.

"your mind link isn't dead. you rejected Xavier, Xavier didn't reject you. try to use the mind link, it might take some effort but if prince Xander is Xavier, you should be able to contact him." Ricky said.

I nodded as I sat on a section of the crypt rubble, letting my eyes glaze over as I attempted to open a mind link with Xavier. It felt like the door was closed as if I was banging on it and it wouldn't budge. I put more energy and effort into it, trying to make this door open in the mind link and just as I was about to give up I suddenly felt the link open.

'I need you. We need you. Come home Xaiv.' Was all I managed to say before I felt the doors push back on my mind and close.

A sudden headache overwhelmed me causing me to groan and hunch over into the snow.

"Aries, everything ok?" Ricky asked, kneeling in front of me.

"I did it but now I have a crippling headache." I got out through the thudding of my mind.

"Come on, ill get you to bed." Ricky said as he picked me up and took me home.

Please let this work.