Hypnotised by drums (TW fanfic - Book 2/4)

Part Twenty

Nathan’s POV

I arrive at the recording studio, where I’m meeting the rest of the boys. I’m the first one here for a change. Usually Jay’s the first to arrive or Max. I suppose they have a good reason not to be here early though. I stand in the lobby, waiting for someone to arrive, anyone. I just hate waiting. I sit down on the soft chairs, after getting a coffee from the coffee machine. I take a sip, before pulling out my phone to check the time. It’s half nine, which means they should be arriving right this second.

I look up to see Max walking through the glass double doors. He’s with our writer Mark. We like to do most of the writing ourselves, but sometimes we need someone to help out. He’s a great guy and I think we all see him as a friend. “Nathan” Max says with a smile. I don’t know why, but he insists on greeting us all with our names and that’s all.

“Finally. Where is everyone?” I ask him, but he just shrugs. “They’ll probably be here in a second anyway” I tell him and then he nods, before sitting down next to me. At that moment my phone starts to vibrate. I pull it out of my pocket and then I realise that it’s Jay calling me.

“Hello?” I ask, whilst pushing the phone to my ear.

“Hey, Nathan. I just thought I would let you know, me and Siva won’t be able to make it in today. I was hoping that we would be able to rearrange it for tomorrow?” he asks me, sounding genuine.

“Alright then, well don’t worry. Is everything ok?” I ask him.

“Yes, we’re just feeling a bit funny. We went out last night and if I’m honest, we’re really hung over. I’m so sorry” he tells me, but something about it just seems a little weird. If they went out for a drink last night why didn’t they invite us?

“Ok then, just don’t go drinking tonight then. I will meet you at the studio at half nine tomorrow then. I’ll contact the others” I tell him and with that I put the phone down. I then turn to Max, with a sigh. “They’re not coming. Well Siva and Jay aren’t anyway. They’re got a hang over” I explain, whilst rolling my eyes.

“Seriously? Well where was my invite?” he asks, sounding annoyed.

“I don’t know, but I didn’t get an invite either, so don’t feel too bad” I sigh, before texting Tom and explaining everything to him.

I suppose the one good thing that’s come out of this would be that I don’t have to come home late and I can see Lucy later. I don’t know why, but I would rather spend time with her than spend it with anyone else. She’s just so perfect and not to mention innocent.

When I get home, I make my way up the path and into the house. The door is unlocked, which just tells me that Renee’s in. “What are you doing home so early?” I hear Renee call from the living room. I close the front door behind me, before heading through to the lounge.

“Siva and Jay have hang over’s and therefore we had to rearrange” I sigh.

“Really?” she asks, as she makes her way over to me. “I suppose that just means there’s more time for just me and you” she smiles, before wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing me.

Jay’s POV

“Come on, let’s get you home” I say to Siva, as I put my phone back into my pocket. I actually can’t believe that I could get some signal all the way up here.

“Ok” he says, as he wipes his eyes. I’ve never seen Siva so weak. He’s always been the happy and easy going member of the group, but now it seems like this whole Claire business has broken him and I can’t bare to see him like this. I head over to the stairs, with Siva following closely behind me. I then head down the stairs, leaving the horrible atmosphere behind us. I don’t ever want to feel that scared for my best friend again. He was seconds away from ending his life and I’m so thankful that I managed to get to him in time.

Once we get downstairs to the reception, we head out of the building. We make our way to a taxi rank, which is close by and then we get into the first taxi we see and I tell the driver the instructions.

“I don’t want to go home” Siva sighs, as the taxi pulls away from the rank.

“I know. You can stay at mine if you want?” I ask him, with a smile.

“Thanks Jay. You don’t know how much I appreciate this” he smiles, weakly.

Siva’s POV

I just can’t face going back there. I don’t want to bump into Claire and have to hear more of her lies and not to mention the memories that now haunt that place. They were once happy memories, but now they seem tainted and full of lies. I can’t even bare to look back at the things we’ve been through. I don’t want to remember how much I thought she loved me. I don’t want to look back and for the lies to be obvious. I’m already kicking myself about it. Why couldn’t I see through the lies? This whole time those two have just been laughing at me and how naive I am. I feel so stupid and right now, all I want to do is hide away from the world! I’ve already attempted suicide twice and I know that if I did go through with it, it would be the easy way out and Claire won’t be punished for what she’s done. Sure she might feel guilty, but that’s not enough. I want her to feel the pain I felt and I just need to find a way to do that. I love her so much, but now the trust is gone and this stupid ring on my finger means nothing. I wish I’d never met her and I wish she would have just told me straight. That would have hurt a lot less than all of the lies. I hope I never have to see her again, but I know that’s not possible. I’ll just have to take life as it comes and try not to lose control again.