Take Me To Reality

Chapter 20

I was sweating because of nervous when the nurse called me. She said it was already my turn.

I stood up and entered the clinic.

“Good Afternoon, Ms. Celeste.” the doctor smiled. I smiled at her too.

“Good afternoon too, doc.”

She started asking and I just answered it all .  .  . honestly.

“Did you have any history before? Like, were you involved in any accidents?” She seriously asked.

My brows furrowed and started remembering my past.

“I .  .  . don’t remember it at all.”

The doctor stared at me for seconds before she nod.

“Hmm, okay,  can you atleast tell me what you just remember?”

I sighed before started talking.

“I .  .  . woke up before .  .  .” hindi ko alam bakit hindi ko matuloy, parang kulang. “I-I was in my room already. They said I’d been in a coma for 3 months. I don’t remember what’s the reason why I was declared comatose. My parents .  .  . they won’t say any single information about what happened.”

“Okay, you had an amnesia?"

“Ah, no.” I chuckled a bit, “I mean, yes, but it was just a short term memory loss.”

“Amnesia is a severe form of forgetfulness that can result from brain injury or brain disease.” She seriously said, “The majority of patients either lose their ability to develop new memories, forget prior memories, or suffer from both. Do you remember anything from your childhood?”

“N-no” she nodded and listed something.

“Can I have your medical records?”

“Ah .  .  . I’ll try to get it.”

She smiled at me.

“Okay, for now. You need to have CT-scan and some check-ups. You also have to take some meds for your frequent headache.”

Marami pa siyang sinabi at nga advise na dapat kong gawin sa tuwing mananakit na naman ang ulo ko.

Matapos ko sa appointment sa doktor ay hindi na ako bumalik sa office. I just texted my parents that I was tired and I needed to rest, hindi naman na sila umangal. Dumiretso na ako sa condo ni Cael at pagkapasok ko pa lang ay katahimikan agad ang sumalubong sa akin.

Nakaramdam ako ng kirot sa puso ko sa isiping sobrang daming nagbago, na hindi ko alam kung maibabalik pa ba namin sa dati ang samahan o talagang natapos na.

Maybe this is the consequence of being inlove with your bestfriend. Not all friendships can turn into romantic relationship. You may two both lose in the process.

Nalilito ako.

Ayan ang nararamdaman ko. Hindi ko kayang nasasaktan ko si Cael, dahil sa twing nakikita ko siyang nasasaktan, nasasaktan din ako.

Napabuntong-hininga na lang ako. Bakit kasi huli, Cael? Kung kailan meron ng Blue? Bakit ngayon lang?

Nagpalit ako ng pambahay at dumiretso sa kusina. I was about to look for the ingredients when I realized that maybe .  .  . he already ate his meryenda. I sighed before I walked back to my room.

Avrie’s still avoiding me. I .  .  . I don’t know whom I'm gonna talk to. I don’t know why I can’t talk to Blue about this matter, I just feel that I don’t have to. Hindi rin pwede kina mom, siguradong mag-aalala sila. Cael .  .  . he’s moving on. Ayoko ng saktan siya. Ayoko ng dagdagan ang bigat na nararamdaman niya dahil sa akin.