LOVE THE WAY I AM

chapter 34

★★BELLA★★
  "He's not Jayden" a sharp voice reply from his back. Huh? His is!
  “This is his twin brother 'Braden" his mother walked to his side and say. "This is the elder twin"
'Mr. Richard didn't tell me about his brother.' What do I know? I hit my fore head with my palm. I feel a so pity for myself for making a fool. I bow my head and apologize softly.
"I'm sorry for the misunderstanding" i feel like flying away. I embarrassed myself with his elder brother?
I walk as fast as I can to my room, to save myself this embarrassment and banged the door really hard. All seconds added that I think of what happened, put more fury in me. I laid on the bed and put the pillow over my head, to avoid my eyes from seeing light."where are you Mr. Richards? I want to go back home, plus I miss you" I say out loud, I really do miss him and now, I can't control myself from these feelings I've been having lately. I'm the only one in this room. Then I hear "Here." Huh? I'm starting to hear things. I feel this is my mind imitating is voice and I say.
"Jayden, you don't know, I like you. I like you so much, and cannot tell you, you're more handsome than this ugly duckling, me. And also, now, I got to know your family status is as this, you're not for Me." My face twitched. "I will pray for so much money next time I come to the world so, you can like me." I say, some small romance imagination starts to feel my heart. How would it be, me and him, in a picnic, and I will feed him with my bare hands.
His voice fell on me and I realize, this is not illusional Mr Richard. "And who told you I like girl who are rich only?" I removed the pillow from my face, he was standing there, looking as handsome as ever, this is one of the things which make me want to see him more often. He's always looking good. His both Hands folded across his chest, staring sharply at me. I want to say something else to him but I forgot. I bit my tongue slightly. Help me in counting pls, how many times have I made a fool of myself in one day? I want to hug him for the fact, he's back, but I mess up. I stand up from the bed, run to the bathroom and closed the door. "Aish Bella, such a fool" I continuously hit my head on the door. "How can you be this foolish? And you like him?! You fool!" My subconscious mind scolded me really hard.
"Bella, are you not coming out?" He asked with a voice filled with mockery, we live in the same house, how can I leave with myself, knowing I spilled the bean? Hearing his voice, my heart to start pounding really hard, like it wants to pull out in the next minute. I'm so confused. I quickly take of my clothes and soak myself in the cold water. If it could freeze this feeling, I would accept. The next thing I heard was a knock at the door, hearing him call my name "Bella",  I deepen myself in the water, not thinking twice of drowning.
"Well don't do anything stupid, I'll be back in some minutes, wait here, so we could go back together he said." The next thing was the sound of his shoe as he walked away.
"Oh my god, I need to die, I need to die!" My head scream out in confusion. After a while of staying in the cold water, I come out with my hair sti wet. Seeing him, I fall all my wet hair to cover my face. He let out a sigh, "don't tell me you've been in since I left lady?"I don't reply. He pulled my hair to the back and look at my face clearly, "you could catch a cold you know? Take this" he said, pulling his suit jacket and putting it over my shoulder, then got a towel to wipe my hair dry. Yanking my head with the to we hard and me saying "ou... Ou, ou" continuously. When he was done, my hair is a mess. I touch the strand from hair which was pointing to the heavens. Then he ruffled my hair,  " what are you thinking, you look good, can we leave?" He says softly, and i nod. Looking good part is such a lie I know. I must look crazy by now.
  I can see he treats me a bit different, Bruno was this helpful when he told he is wanted to marry me. So much care, make Me blush. Does it means he has some feelings for me? Jayden hold my hands, and we both go down the stairs. His family were staring so much, and he pulled me faster like he was in a hurry, no chance to greet anyone, I can imagine This small me who looks like high school kid, been pulled out by him. He made me sit in front seat before turning to driver's seat.
Started the engines and we're good to go. The car is so silent, I'm thinking about what I spilled out, my heart hopes he doesn't ask or tease me about it. His voice brought me back to reality. "So Bella, you want a lot of money so, you can marry me?" He says. This is the worst of all. Pouring a plate of food on my head is better than this, I wish I could wipe his memory.   I stayed numb, till he speak again. "Do you like me Bella?" Huh? That's too much to expect from my side. It's OK to dream, but not this big.
"When did I say that?" I questioned. I can't loose like this. He sighed before speaking again. "You're turning into a little liar, is it my company? But I don't lie? Should I repeat your exact words pompom?"
  "Ah no... I knew you were there, I just said those to stimulate you, it's a joke, don't take it personally, I smile, my inner face is more than embarrassed, but she can't show it.
"Well it's OK If you want to like, me" he said.