LOVE THE WAY I AM

CHAPTER 20

★★JAYDEN★★

      I wanted to be the bigger boss, he never care about me so I won't mind ruining him.

       After I came back, I possessed new characters and habits. More worst than before.

        My father hated me more, he never gave me anything... I was an outcast living in the family house, I decided that place was never for me, I left home, with my mother's support. She's still doing that till date.

      Then I went under Wayne for a few months. He said he wanted to nuture me, I wasn't satisfied. I met a few guys before getting my aim.

       I-

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      "Mr Richard... Mr Richard?" I can hear her slow voice, almost forgetting the name 'Richard'

       I opened my eyes slowly... How long did I hug her so tight?

       She grinned "hehe... I thought I was going to die" and say shyly.

       "Sorry" I got up. "So will you stay?" I asked with excitement drawn all over my brows.

      "Yes, but I have conditions." She answer while trying to push me off. She feels so uncomfortable around me.

       "The rules I must abide by to stay here, you also should abide by them. Like... No 1, don't come In my room without permisson." She said.

      I pursed my lips for a while, not knowing what to answer, she pay loose change here, I pay the bills. I didn't charge her for anything other than a little amount for the house.

      "O...k" I answered.

      "I'm hungry Bella, help me" I tell her.

      "You yelled when i asked if yoi were hungry."

      Oh... I remember. Coward me!

       I watch her go to her room then closed the door.

     This girl...! I thought she was so calm. but now, she's acting boss in my house... Aish!

        I went to my room. For the past few months, I've not been able to look into my business, because of all these...

         I opened my laptop to work...

       ★★BELLA★★

     I still don't believe him when he said he'll change, he seems like this tough guy and tough guys for sure will enjoy illegal things.

       I say on my bed... Writing another letter to Mom.

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Dear Mom,

      It's me, your lovely Bella. How are you doing in heaven? Are you living well?because I am.

     I got a new place to stay, Lisa finally threw me out. I miss you so much, and I hope to meet you someday in heaven, I'm being a good girl so we can meet someday in heaven.

                    Bella-❤
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    After writing, I seal it with a gum and put it among the ones of last week. I haven't had a chance, to go the beach and drop of them in the water.

         After my mom's death, I write letters to her every week and drop it in the water, I know it's weird, but I really miss her.

      I put another of her picture on the wall, using a duct tape to make it still...

        "Mom, why did you leave me...?" A drop of tears fall my my eyes...

       I start to imagine a life with my mom and dad, in my present age, no Lisa, no crazy houeemate who takes drugs, no Kelly to bully me. Just three of us have a nice and lovely breakfast.
I sighed... A tough life.
       
    I hear him hitting something really hard this time... 'God when do I get my own rest?' Am afraid to go to his room... I try to stay calm to hear what he's saying...

      "This stupid laptop! Trying to f**k yourself OK?! I'll shred you!"  I hear him.
    So now, he's fighting with the laptop? great. He's actually a psycho.

       I closed my eyes, trying to sleep. I can hear him cursing louder... I draw the blanket to myself and covered my ears with the pillow. Staying with a madman...