LOVE THE WAY I AM

CHAPTER 29

She turned me by my shoulder. And my eyes meet his. His piercing gaze, into my me, making me feel guilty.
   
      Looking directly into my eyes for a while, he ignored me. He was fully focused on the game. Seems he doesn't care about me been here.

      Bunny held wrist. "Bella, lemme take you to see my friends."

      She lead me to the back. A bunch of guys laughing. Smoke filled air. I gold my nose while I followed her to some seats at the back.

        She crashed on a Boy's lap. "Hi baby?" She gave him a kiss on his cheek.

        I stood like an idiot, watching them. "Bella, this is my boyfriend. Meet Harry." He stretched his hand for a hand shake and I with drew mine, I hid my hand behind my back.

         "Mr Stephen is calling you" the bar girl said.

      She extended her Hand "follow me pls".

    I turned to look at my cousin, she was so busy, won't notice I'm gone a few minutes.

        I followed her. Someone was seated alone... The back figure- wait, this is Mr Richard. I turned back, finding out it's him. "Halt..." He said leisurely.

      "Hoping to see another guy?"

     How many names does he have? He says he's Mr Richard, a tattoo of Jayden on his shoulder and now, Stephen?"

      "Don't look at me like that you little imp. You didn't go to work? Bella, I never knew you came to this kind of places".

        I stay quiet. He's a trouble maker. Answering him will give him more strength to talk. I turned to walk away.

        "Bella, let's go home." He got up and held my hand. "This type of places doesn't suit you... And this dress! Throw all these away, they make you look like a bitch."

       "It doesn't concerns you what i like to wear." I pulled my hand from him and walk back to were bunny was. He's a bad person. For a whole week, he ignored me like I'm a ghost and Now he wants me to go home?

   I stand in front of everyone. "You can sit here" some guy tap on the spot close to himself.
  
      I looked around, no other person will offer me a seat so I don't refuse. I sit closely to him, with the fact I feel uncomfortable, I can't complain.

        "Hi Bella? Do you live around here?" A girl asked.    
  
  "No, she's here to visit for a while" bunny answered. They were all speaking obscene stuffs. I'm so quiet until I'm asked another question.

        "Bella, what college did you attend?" I'm dumbfounded. Sadly, I did not attend college. I was going to be open when bunny interupt.

      "Tori, are you wearing the new shoes? Wow, it looks great on you." She said. The girl gazed at her own feets "really? I had double thoughts buying this"
    
   She drift her attention from me. Thank God am safe.

   Going out with people is fun, getting to see new places. I don't talk much, so I don't have to be questioned.

     I feel so exhausted, after a few hours, I head back home. Instead of the shop, tomorrow I'll explain to them.

      "Open up...!" I knock on the door. He didn't reply. I left the keys inside and now, this psycho inside won't open. Ofcourse, why would he open? I refused to follow him.

        I twist the door knob, it's open. The whole living room Is scattered. The curtains pulled, some shredded.

      "Mr Richard? Mr Richard?" I called. I remembered he drew a line of prohibition for me entering his room.

       "Call Jayden..." He staggered to the living room. "Pish... Who's Richard? Not me!" Blood rushing from his nose.

       "What happened to your nose?" I ask him and took my steps back as he approached. I can  see pure lust in his red eyes.

      "You should wear this type of skirt more often, you look really-" he held his head "different. You look different. And sorry, I forgot to lock my room door, the whole place is scattered. I'll clean up, don't worry."

     He picked the TV from the floor, then it slipped. I'm not sure that would work again.
"Sorry, just so sad. I won't do This again promise" he looks frustrated.

"Why did you take drugs?" I asked softly.

      "I told you, this addiction, I can't get over it, I'm trying Bella."

       "But you have to give it your all, you still go back to it."

       He sighed, used his hand to wipe the blood off his nose .  "you know,  today, I got what I wanted,  it was so simple, i realize I still have it. but now,  I'm sad." He sat on the chair and tapped the spot next to himself.

    "Sit here." He doesn't look OK...

     "I'm alright" he said like he reads me. "Sit." I sit on the couch after he pushed the ripped pillow down. Rested his head on my laps. He holds my hand then put it on his fore head.

     He seems calm, I can ask him. "Mr Richard,  who's Jayden?"

       "Why do you ask?"

    "I know it's you Mr Richard"

       "Well I'm not." He replied.

  "But you said so yourself and also, you have a tattoo on your shoulder with that name."

       "Can you believe the word of a drug addict?" He sighed.
     
      "I did it without trace this time. Just like the old days, but now, I'm not happy, I fear it hunts me. The drugs help me relax"

     "What did you do?" I asked.

    "I still got it. but now, I feel I'm wrong for the first time after so many years."

       "Mr Richard, what did you do?"

        "Don't call me Richard, that name is sick. I'm Jayden." He say.

      "But you said not to-" like I said, answering question with something else

    "I killed him. But now I feel my heart is bleeding.

       Kill?! Who?!

      "Bella, am a killer. I'm a hitman." He said.

      "And this is what I do for a living. I cover up with my business."

     I try to speak, but I can't. He's a hitman?

        "I'm going to sleep, let's stay like this for a while" he closed his eyes. His head  still rested on the numb me. I can't digest his words.