LOVE THE WAY I AM

CHAPTER 40

★★BELLA★★
  Some one Is knocking the door. I looked through the window, it's Braden. He smiled as she watch him. He had sharp eyes.
"Bella, good morning" he said. He raised the packed food up, "I brought you breakfast!"
I want to send him away but I am lonely and have no one to talk to. I sigh big before opening the door for him. One breakfast won't kill us both. He was wearing a wide smile "thank you." I sneered as he walked in.
  "You can have it while its hot." He said. He opened the food, "we can have breakfast together, I brought extra."
Sitting opposite him on the dinning, I sigh. "How are you now?" He asked. "Bella, don't let Jayden's life ruin yours. You're so young ans have to enjoy life, if you wish, we can Go out today, you should be bright." He's right, I need to be bright.
*****sometimes, when your broken, you feel calm around the most people you hate.*****
Braden is among those Set of people now. I wipe my mouth with the towel. "Where do you want to go?"  I asked him.
"Do you have a job?" He asked. "No, I don't. I have some money to sustain me for a while. I need some days break before thinking of how to arrange my life." I smiled weakly... "I will follow you, you're right, I need to brighten my day."I sigh aftr saying these words. My eyes looks like they can only see dew,  the world is dark... Just as.my life now. Sucked up.
I hate meeting new people, they give me hope.
I hate hope. Hope is always hopeless.
Better not dream, dreams are unreal.
These things are my formal illusion. This dew I see is better.  He waited for me in the living room. "You're done?" He asked when I come out dressed.
I wore a huge sweater and a pair of black jeans.
"Let's go then." He said. The car was so Silent. I did not say anything, and when he does, I never reply. I'm always quiet. "Bella, send me your number,  when you feel down and sad, call me, I'm always here to help you." He said.

     "I broke my phone... Maybe later, when it gets repaired, I will send you my number." I say, this is the first Time my anger got out of hand, all my life, I hold every thing, when my step mom oppress me, her children bully me, I never fight back. Now, I'm like a charged bull, react for every single thing. These days, I fight back so hard... This is not me, I feel as though we are two divided in my heart.
He took me to a Chinese restaurant.
"You will find true peace soon." He read as he broke the fortune cookie open. He smiled. "Wow, good luck to myself then. Bella, wish me luck."he said.
  I broke mine open. **Broken piece can not last long with glue.**  "wow. The fortune cookie sees it all." I say with a weak smile.
"Read yours." He said. " you're sure you wanna here this?" I asked...
"Yes, I showed you mine" he said.

      I strain my eyes more into the pale piece "OK... It said here- pls pass me your pen" I told him. He dipped his hand in his pocket and brought out a pen, passed it to me obediently.
   I wrote down at the back of the paper **Give a slap to the opposite seated person.**
canceled the original sentence and passed it to him. "Here, read it out loud." I smiled. This already lit me up a bit, I can't hold my laugh as he read it.
"Ha, funny, will you give me a slap?" He asked.
   "Only if you mess with me." I laughed.
     "Open another." He said. I opened the second one.
**Climbing hills, climbing mountains, falling down**
This is not understandable to me.
    "Do you understand this?" I passed the fortune to him.
   He read out loud. "It's just a bunch of paper words someone wrote in their sleep." He said. "Forget it. Now," he put his hands on mine. I remove them slowly.
  "Tell me about yourself. You seem interesting, for my brother to threaten my life for you, tell your friendship."
"I am Bella, I live a boring life. Nice meeting me." I said.
"Aww... Nah...! There must be something more, tell me." He put his hands on his chin, widen his eyes, waiting for the secret I have.  "Don't want to tell me? You guys dont have a relationship I know."
"He was helping me. I'm homeless." I sigh... Focusing my eyes on the cookie why i talk, to stop the tears that is about to drop. "But now he left." 
  "And you, why are you ask in me so much question. You were also following me...why? I hate men pestering me." I tell him
"Just to be friends" he smiled. "I'm not interested in girls." He said. "I just want a friend."
"So you're not straight?" I asked. "Ga-!"
  "Shh...! Hmmmn." He said. "Don't tell Jayden even. No one knows, you're the first."
  "Bella, this is my biggest secret. Don't tell anyone." He zipped his mouth with his hand. "Keep my secret, you can tell me anything, friends?" He stretched his hand.
     "Friends!" I said.
Been gay, I feel more free to tell him anything now. At least he promised to listen, unlike the one who left.
He dropped me home after spending some hours talking together. I think he's personality mine. We have so many same interest.