LOVE THE WAY I AM

CHAPTER 46

★★BELLA★★

First, I didn't care about anything, but i- I thought about you, and everything and and..."
He brought a flower from his inner pocket, was handling it to me, I cover my eyes slightly, letting a droplet of tears dropped down. What I'm about to say will hurt him, I pray he doesn't get more hurt though. "Brad, leave my hand... I don't want all these, I don't like you at all... Please don't do this to Me." I use a more softer voice. "Braden, you know I like Jayden right? I haven't gotten over that, I can't lie to myself, I haven't... I would only accept any proposer if it were to be him." The whole shop is watching me, another embarrassing moment for me.
"Listen..." I look more intensely into his eyes "I prefer you been gay than Falling for me this way, this all feels wrong." I slowly removed his fingers turn by turn before leaving the coffee shop. I took a taxi straight home. Getting to the gate, I feel dizzy and feel like breaking down. I've thought so much for the last few days, cried so Much and its all affecting me now. How can he say he likes me, was he never gay? He is not supposed to have interest in women. Finally I locked my door, I can't keep on holding these tears, I scream loud, I have to cry once so I don't die of the pain inside. "How can Braden say he loves me, the one I love doesn't care." I tell myself.
Staying alone for the whole evening, I decided to go out to buy my dinner.
Some girls are talking while sitting on the benches around... Their talk interest me, they are talking about some money they made and some other work.
I walked over, "hi!" I greeted with a smile before sitting at the end of the other bench, acting like I'm busy, but with both my ears focused in their gist.
"And you know, last night, I was so lucky to follow some Rich dude home, you know how much I got? I swear, if I go back to town, I must definitely find him." One said. "Really, that's so good, you have a shinny star, last night, I got duped." -the others. "Argh, I don't want to think of my experience."
I've released, they are all saying absurd stuff... No good stuff. I got up to leave when someone walked over.
"Hey!" She said smiling. "Hi, I'm Bella. And you... Are?"
"I'm Alex, saw you were sitting lonely, are you alright?" She seems friendly.
"Yeah, I'm OK." I said, putting on my cap, I bought my dinner, there's no use staying here.
"Friends?" She brought her hand forward. "Friends." I said smiling shyly like I always do.

Next day:

Sleeping on Mr Richard bed with one leg out and the fact I'm drooling so much, my phone started it's annoying noise. I kicked the shelf once more and the phone falls off. "Oo oh..." I wiped my eyes clean then picked it from the floor, it's still OK, Braden bought this for me, it will be so bad If I break it like my old one.
"He...llo?" I answered rubbing my scattered hair. "When do I get my money?!!!" This is the ony thing that came out, and so loud. My ex boss.
"OK..." I gulped down spit. "Good morning?"
"There's nothing good about this morning, get me my money shit!" Thats more than harsh. "Listen imp!, 2 days! I give you 2 days, don't get me my money, guess who's spending her worthless life in jail?" He hung up.
Well that's bad? I can't even borrow from anyone, I have no hope of paying back. Jay and family is out of the list.
"Who Will i call, who can be helpful?" I ask myself as I'm biting the same edge of my phone.
Bunny...
Her name ring in my head, she's the only one I have.
I decided to go see her...