LOVE THE WAY I AM

Chapter 60

Chapter 60:

★★BELLA★★
   I woke up with my head spinning like a wheel. Jayden is not in the room, I walked out of the room, holding my half buttoned shirt. "Jay? Where at you? Jayden?" I called his name more than once, he did not reply. "Jayden?!" I called again, and still no reply from him, i decided to check the other rooms. Another room was opened half way through, I peeped through the open space, he was arranging his clothes in a bag
"Where are you going?" I asked him with the most disappointing voice.
"Bella, you're awake?" He brought his lips closer to kiss my cheek, I shifted my face away from his reach. "Where at you off to? You haven't answered this question."
"I need to go back Bella. I have businesses to take Care of, my company is also there. It can't be without it's CEO for so long!"

"And me? You're leaving me? Are you that heartless?" He held my shoulder and pulled me down, making me sit on the bed as he spoke. "Bella. soon, we will get married. You want that right? To be with me." He pulled me in his arm and hugged me tightly with a sigh. "I also want that. But... Before then, I have to focus on one thing, that is to take care of everything I have. We would have dinner together tomorrow night OK? For now I need to leave."
I don't expect this. "Ok then. come back soon." I muttered. "Bella, you can go shopping since I'm not here so you don't feel so lonely."
"No, no. I don't want to go anywhere. you want to leave? It's fine, I can stay alone." I remember the last shopping, I still can't get over it. He leaned closer to me and placed his lips softly on mine, trying to have a place, he put his hand behind my head to support himself, drawing me more close, his kiss start to become hotter and more intensively, I pushed his chest daintily and mumbled in a voice which sounded clearly in his ears. "Now you want to do this, won't you be late? Hmmn."
"Don't be like this spot" he made my hair a mess like always with his hands, rubbing hard on my scalp. "You're acting different, like a romp. Where did you get the soul from?"
"The devil!" I replied in anger.
"It's OK then, I'll leave now... I feel I'm not needed."
He stood,  smiled before looking back to me twice then left like he is reluctant to leave. I tried not to look back at him, else he knows how badly i don't want him to leave.

Oh well, what can I do, he left. I thought of going back home to check our house, it's more empty without anyone. I looked at my scattered hair in the mirror... "Aish" I shrilled out of frustration while ruffling my hair. "This bastard left." I ranted following by a long hiss, still after venting my anger on my face- frowning, he still won't come back now. He is a bastard, what do I expect.

  It was already towards evening when my phone rang repeatedly, with Braden's caller ID.   "Braden? Why would he call me?" I said inwardly. I gulped down saliva and tried to act normal, even though I'm so curious to know why he called. My mind keep on trying to keep me balance.
"It's OK, it's just a call, it's just a call" i kept on repeating, seeing i can hold my self, I picked uo the phone in a hush and answered, "Hello," I lisped. 
"Bella, how are you?"
  "I'm OK, not that I have a problem..."
"Want to have dinner together?"
"I thought you-"
   "You left?" He completed.
   "Yes." I dared, knowing he will be angry.
"Well I didn't leave. I'm just so bored and lonely, and I thought it will be ok for the both of us to have dinner, as friends."
"Yeah it's not a bad going though. You know what? Tell me where to meet, I will be glad to have dinner with you." I told him without thinking twice.
He gave me the address of a shop down town.
In the next fifteen minutes, I got prepared and was about to leave when Gabriel pulled my attention, "where are you going Bella?" He asked with concern.

"Going to have dinner with a friend, will be back sooner." He was still staring at me... "What? I can't be caged here! I'm a human who also have a life to live." I countered.

     As i walk down the street, my heart continued yo beat faster with each step I took.

"Bella, you're here? I thought you were joking, so happy to see you here." He started while opening the seat for me.

   "What will you like to have?" He asked and passed me the menu.
"You're scared of me?" He suddenly asked as he read my expression.
"No, I'm fine," I smiled back. "You're not same person, I would like if you can be as a normal friend. Forget your brief with your brother for me and all..."
"Yea, I'm trying to get over all, but it's proving so hard. I don't know why." He said.
I was about to speak but paused... There's no need to show him Care else he misuse this again.
"Bella, any man would be so lucky, including Jayden. I guess I'm the only one unlucky not to be your heart. Wuuuuu... Poor me!" He dropped his face and sighed heavily. Still i gave no reply. I promised myseld not to give him hope but help him move on.
The remaining time of the dinner was quiet. Soft music playing, making me miss Jayden more. I wish he was here instead.
After dinner with him, he offered to drop me off, I plainly refused, I prefer to walk back home Alone than letting him accompany me. Braden can never be trust worthy. Calling a taxi, i took another look though the glass doors of the restaurant, seeing his eyes still focused outside even though he can't see me clearly. "Straight." I ordered the driver.