Uncontrollable Obsession

Kapitulo 20

Cuddle

"G–gago..." gulat kong reaksiyon sa sinabi niya.

Magtanan... kami?

I didn't even think my mind would be right. Because there's a part of me that's hoping... that  my accusations against him here in my mind are wrong. But it turnt out to be in other side. I was not mistaken. He should not have spoken so that my judgments on him wouldn't be right. I shook my head because of disappoinment.

Wala! Baliw na talaga siya. Kailangan ko siyang ilapit sa psychiatrist na kakilala ko. But before I can do that, I need a phone to make calls.

Binaling ko sa kaliwa ang mukha at mula sa loob ng kotse, sinulyapan ko ang matayog at magarang bahay sa tapat. Nasa labas kami ng fence. Sa bandang gilid niya pinarking ang kotse. Hindi kasi gaya ng sa mansion na awtomatikong bumubukas ang pultahan. Pero iyon lang ang sa tingin ko. Baka kapag deniretso niya ang kotse kusa rin itong bubukas at hindi ko lang alam ang parteng 'yon.

Kung diyan ako makukulong kasama siya, panigurado akong... magtatagal kami. My mind is at mess. I can't think straight, but one thing is for sure. I will find a way for him to leave me. Hindi puwede ang gusto niya.

"Pinapamukha mo lang sa'kin ang kati mo sa katawan, Zekiel." I said emphatically.

Ngunit ngumuso lang siya, hindi man lang nasindak sa binitiwan ko.

"Really? I don't think I've ever been to that part,  but if you want... why not? After all, it's bad to refuse the grace that's given to us."

Sure of it, nakita niya ang hitsura kong hindi na maipinta. Napangiwi ako dahil sa kahibangan niya.

He's really crazy!

Out of all of them, he was the only one who I really thought was different. I had a different impression of him at first. That he couldn't be easily joked with by the people around him. That he couldn't make jokes because he was too serious. As if when it comes to him, everything should be serious. Like... it was as if he's not in the mood every single of day because his thick eyebrows are always met and raised. When he speaks every word comes out of his mouth is really tough and above all he gives his friends a sharp look whenever they start doing something silly.

He's soulless, harsh, stringent and rude. That's why the image of him doing something silly didn't even cross to my mind. Because I've thought those things were really vague for him. He doesn't care about the people around him. The only thing he does is work and work.

I laughed even though nothing was funny.

I thought only his friends had a talent for lunacy, but he does too. The only thing more annoying is that he takes advantage of me. I wouldn't have let it came out of my mouth if I hadn't noticed it.

"You will get out of there or I will carry you so we can enter the house. You choose?" He said coldly.

N'on ko lang ulit siya narinig ng ganoon. He thought I was mocking him? Kaya pinapili niya ako ngayon. Well, it should be, because that's what I want him to think.

Binigyan ko siya ng matalim na tingin nang bumalik ang paningin ko sa kaniya.

"Let me remind you, Zekeil, that you don't own me, so you have no right to rule and control me."

But as I expected, he ignored what I said. He really is ruling me. He doesn't consider what I want.

"I'm going to count, then. In three, two—"

Napilitan akong itulak siya para makalabas ng kotse. He moved backward because of what I did to him. I have to admit that even I was surprised by what I did, but there was nothing I could do because I had already pushed him away.