Uncontrollable Obsession

Kapitulo 30

Forgiveness

H-he wants to give me something special? But he didn't have the chance... so he made this for me? Really? I doubt that. The last thing I want him to do for me is to make cassava cake.

"T-thank you!" I said and instantly averted my eyes away from him.

I don't know why he does this, I didn't tell him that I wanted cassava cake. So it's so surprising that he knows what I want to eat now. Wala naman akong sinabihan. Naisip ko ang naiwan sa bahay pero pinilig ko ang ulo. Imposible kasing ikukuwento ni Viahna ang gusto ko. Malabo ring si Welina ang nagsabi. She doesn't know that I crave something sweet.

Bakit ko ba ginagawang big deal? I don't know! I'm surprised and annoyed of the sudden thoughts.

Maybe because... inside my mind I just thought it was too quick. Kung babalansehin kasi... he was still in the company when I went to Katriyah's house and then the next thing he suddenly appeared like his teleporting, plus he brought us here and there this cassava cake that he personally made?!

Ano 'yon? Sa kompaniya niya ginawa ang cassava cake? His unbelievable!

Kinilig ka naman kaya magpasalamat ka nalang! E, ginawa ko na! Magulo ka masyado! Medyo lang naman. Ewan ko sa'yo!

Natagpuan ko na lamang ang sariling nakatitig na pala sa cassava cake, parang ayaw kong galawin. Ang hirap lang paniwalaan na siya ang gumawa.

"You don't believe me?"

I lifted my eyes only to see his accusing look while I blinked hard when I saw something strange. It's like I'm raving with him.

He was looking at me intently, waiting to what would happen.

Bakit may dapat bang mangyari? Is he expecting something... romance... that's foul!

"I... Naniniwala naman..." labas sa ilong kong sagot.

Ano bang nangyari sa akin? Sinabi lang niyang siya mismo ang gumawa, nahihibang na agad ako?!

Hindi naman kasi ako madelalu kung hindi lang heart shape ang cassava. It's so doubtful that he made it. Gayung... parang... ang labo. Napakalabo. Or it's just me who has a problem, doesn't want to accept the truth.

I tried to imagined him doing it himself. Well, in the first place... he can be. He can do it. He's not disabled so... it's not impossible that he made the cassava cake but really for me... it's too dull to happened. For Pete's sake it's a heart shaped! Only people who love can throw an effort to make like this. But anyway... I sighed and looked outside.

Pinapahirapan mo lang ang isip mo.

Am I acting too much? It just that I can't accept it. I mean I know he has feelings for me but with a situation like this?! Really?! His wife is at home! If he did... ano?! Doon niya 'to pinagsikapan gawin?! I can't imagine! Binili lang 'to. I'm so sure of that. Ang labong-labo ng sinabi niya. Umirap ako sa naisip.

You just don't want to embrace the fact and admit it or not, you don't want to accept that he really made it because of course, he beats you! He unconsciously stepped on your character. You're a woman but you know nothing. Kain lang ang kaya mong gawin. Talunan ka pagdating sa pagluluto. And that's where he beat you. You're a goner!

Pero hindi! Kaya namang pag-aralan 'yon. Sigurado akong nahihirapan siya. Isa pa, ganda lang nitong tingnan, ang lasa, ewan lang. Ganoon nga. I looked away as I felt hungry. Ginigiit ko nalang talaga ang sarili kahit wala na akong magagawa.

Para akong bombang sumabog dahil sa kung ano-anong sinasabi ng isipan ko.

Alam kong nanghuhusga na ako pero hindi ko lang talaga matanggap. At saka...