Project: Make Him Fall (Completed)

Chapter 22: Like the movies

Oh, hello reality! It’s so wonderful to meet you again! I missed you so much.

Or not.

Everything is not just how I imagined it to be. You know those scenes that I've watched from movies where I dramatically wrote a letter and go to the boy's room to have a good last look before I leave and then when I got home I sneak into my room? Yeah, that's how I imagined this to be and it sucks because I’m not really good at this shit.

Okay, first, akala ko makakatakas na ako kay Toby. I thought I will be able to leave without having to face him. Just like the movies. Well, I’m wrong because the moment I step outside my room, he was sitting on the sofa facing me while tapping his fingers in the sofa like a boyfriend waiting for his girlfriend for a date!

“Leaving already?” He said while his eyes is set on mine. I immediately panicked and started blabbering shits before I could even realize it. Just how hard is it to actually say good bye?

It is very hard. Sa ngayon ay dapat nagpapalusot na ako sa kanya pero naisip ko rin na wala rin akong mapapala, it's obvious isn't it? I'm leaving. Tumikhim ako before shutting my mouth when he raised his brows on me. It was freaking 4am! Hindi ba siya inaantok?

"Natulog ka ba?" I asked but he just stared at me blankly.

"I'm waiting for you. Now, wag mong ibahin ang usapan, Lynell."

Okay. I sighed when I realized na wala akong takas. “Y-you knew right?” And he nodded. “Pipigilan mo ba ako?” I asked.

Umiling siya and started making his way towards me. Hindi ako gumalaw sa pwesto ko and just waited for him. He ruffled with my already messed hair while smiling down at me and hugged me tight. Ako naman ako parang bata na gusto nang umiyak sa pwesto ko. I really hate goodbyes! That’s why tatakas na sana ako. Hindi ako sanay sa ganito!

You see, whenever I have a problem I always run away from it. Habit ko na 'yun. And most of them ay ayaw kong harapin. I was afraid so mas gusto ko nalang na takbuhan lahat ng problema ko.

“Tatakas ka na nga, ayaw mo pa ako yakapin pabalik!” Aniya habang natatawa. Natatawa ko rin siyang niyakap pabalik while trying my best not to shed a tear. No tears, please.

“Kahit kailan panira ka sa plano ko! You know how much I hated goodbyes!” Bumitaw ako sa yakap at may hinanap na kung ano sa bag ko and when I finally found it, I handed it to him.

Ngumiti siya habang kinuha ang letter ko para sa kanya. I spent my whole night just to make him that letter! Sayang naman effort ko kung hindi ko ibibigay kahit na alam naman pala niya all along ang plano ko!

“Thank you,” Ngiti ko. “For everything.”

Toby pulled me again for a hug and muffled some words on my hair. “I will really miss you, brat!”

And with that, umalis na ako bago pa ako maging emotional.

And the second wasn’t so good too. Akala ko wala akong maaabutan na Mark sa paguwi ko. Pero ako pa ang nagulat nang pagbukas ko ng pinto, a strong arms pulled me and hugged me tight. I thought I got into the wrong house or worst, got kidnapped!