Project: Make Him Fall (Completed)

Chapter 20: Kiss Back

I’ve already imagined the day na magkikita kami ni Mark. It’s not like I can hide forever diba? Dapat ready na ako sa muling pagkikita namin. But I didn’t expect that day to come this fast. Yeah, the day that I’ve prepared for has finally arrived. Pero sa itsura ko ngayon, parang wala akong pinaghandaan.

I don’t know which emotion to show. I was hurt yet sa itsura niya ngayon parang gusto ko nalang siyang patawarin at yakapin. But no, I must resist.

Well, congrats! I should be happy, right? Mark had finally made his move. Days, weeks, months. Ito na ‘yung hinihintay ko. He’s in front of me yet hindi ko magawang matuwa. Matagal kong inisip kung paano ko siya haharapin if ever this day comes. Nakaplano na ako ng maraming scenario sa utak long ago but now I don’t even remember a thing! As in totally blank!

I wanted to act casual in front of him. Gusto kong ipakita sa kanya na wala rin akong pakialam and I’m just doing this kasi sabi niya he wanted to talk. He just suddenly emerged from the front door. Hindi ko alam kung paano niya natakasan ang mga guards sa baba. I don’teven know how the hell did he find this place. Fucking connections!

Looking at him parang walang pinagbago. Ganun pa rin ang bihis niya, black shirt na bagay na bagay sa kanya, pants and his topsider na regalo ko pa sa kanya nong Christmas. And oh, paano ko makakalimutan ang pagngisi niya. I just want to slap that smirk off his face!

See, parang walang pinagbago but when you try to look at him, mahahalata mong something’s off. Iba ‘yung way ng pagngisi niya..parang pilit? He maybe smirking but his smirk is telling me that something is not right. He look really tired and..sad. Pumangit rin ang skin niya and halatang hindi siya nagpagupit. And boy, he looks sexy with his scruffy face! Has he not been shaving all this time? ‘Yan lang ang nagustuhan ko sa itsura niya ngayon! I swear, ang sexy!

Naalala ko pa na pinakaayaw ni Mark sa lahat ay ‘yung hindi magshave dahil madumi daw tignan and not his style kasi manly. In short, he describes it as ‘ew’. But look at him now! Lalo siyang gumwapo. And true, ang manly nga niya tignan ngayon! I might tell him not to shave pag bati na kami.

“Do you want to ask a question or listen while I talk?”

I mentally scold myself for checking him out. Oh, so he knows how to ask me now. Kung dating Mark ‘to ay gagawin niya kung anong gusto niya.

“Talk.”

He sighed in my one word answer. “Okay. Look, uhm..I’m sorry. I’m really sorry about the-“

“I don’t want to hear any of your sorry, okay?” He nodded.

Kung magsosorry lang rin siya ay mas mabuti pang wag na kami magusap. Every time he said sorry to me, mas lalo lang niya pinapafeel sa akin na pinagsisihan niya ang lahat.

“Hmm, okay. Come home..please?” He almost whispered. Halos hindi ako makatingin sa kanya. Mark never pleaded and I hate to see him like this.

“Please?” He added when I didn’t answer. “Why did you run away? Diba sabi mo sa akin dati na ang problema dapat pinaguusapan at hindi tinatakbuhan? I don’t understand why, I thought our friendship was solid? You said it yourself. Nakalimutan mo na ba ‘yun?”