"HAPPINESS DEPENDS UPON OURSELVES." –Aristotle
#MSeries2
I couldn't escalate things hoarded in my head as I uncomfortably gathered myself altogether in my assigned seat. I can't take my eyes off the window and just stare at the bluish sky. Maybe, behind those clouds are positives meant for me. Meant for leaving. I flew to this plane away without the assurance of being fine once I landed and live for a moment. Dahil bakit nga ba? Paano kung hindi talaga?
That was nearly 17 hours of plane ride and I landed safely with a car waiting for my arrival. Isang matandang American citizen ang sumundo sa akin sa airport. He's kind of old but still fits to drive for me. Kinuha niya sa akin ang trolley bag ko at pinagbuksan para maka pasok na sa kotse. The ride was long but he got me home safe.
"Thank you, Madame! Have a good stay!"
"Thank you."
I said dryly and go inside the house. Bahay na namin 'to dati pa noong buhay pa si Mama. It's been years since the last time I lived here and I missed it. We've spent such a good time here as a family and created so much memories. And now, it's not going to happen again. I'll live here alone for years.
From months to one and a half year of staying all I did is to adapt thier culture and rules and regulations so I could fit in. Sobrang adjustments ang ginawa ko para mamuhay nang normal katulad nila. Changes of weather, time zones, the way they dress, socialize with others and even the ways of doing things on your own. Hindi madali. Lalo pa't mag isa ako sa isang malaking bahay. I am independent when I'm still I'm the Philippines but I got more independent the moment I stepped in Canada. There were times when all I can do is to sit and cry because I got homesick and I miss the people back in the Philippines. I was not there when Jewel gave birth to Rocco's baby and I felt so anxious for not being there in the most precious time of thier lives. I could've seen the baby sooner.
My second year is when I got the chance to breath properly. Medyo bihasa na ako sa mga bagay sa Canada. I got the chance to stroll around alone while avoiding to have a chit chat with anyone. Although I think it's bad for me but I got slight terrified of what will happened next. Just like before. I finally managed to be friend with the seasons also. Nakakaginhawa na ako nang maayos at malalim. Nakakatulog na rin ako nang walang ibang iniisip at pangamba.
During the third year of being in Canada was a bit rough for me. Dahil malayo ako sa Pilipinas at may naiwan pang trabaho I do my work via emails and internet meetings instead. I thought it would be just fine but considering the time differences of the two countries made me sick and tired. I need to get up during midnights to do meetings and another meetings. Minsan rin ay hindi na ako nakakatulog nang maayos or worse hindi na talaga natutulog magdamag. Dahil successful and ginawang expansion, our negotiations abroad became broader and spread out that made daddy hired another experts. It's a battle between my health and my responsibilities as a soon to be heir of our winery.
Fourth year was tougher. Due to overworked and fatigue dad was sent to the hospital because he was found unconscious inside his office. Na confined pa siya nang isang linggo sa loob hospital so that his doctor can monitor his health status. And he's getting older that it made me sick even more thinking about it. And when I got the chance to talk to him we did some FaceTime.
He breath normally while looking at the screen of the laptop. I just scolded him for being so reckless this past few weeks.
"I trust my men but I can't risk it..."lusot niya.
"Ilang beses munang sinabi sa'kin 'yan. Hindi na 'yan oobra ngayon, dad."matabang kong saad.
He chuckled. "Looks like the tables are turned now, huh?"
BINABASA MO ANG
MS 2: To Own Her (Completed)
General Fiction"With just a short period of time, I've learned to love him. I never know why but I just did. And it's deep." Martina Queiruz.
