MS 2: To Own Her (Completed)

Chapter 41

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I was dead silent when we we're on our way back. I got this sudden over reacting emotions  and didn't know where it came from. Basta nalang akong natahimik simula noong pumasok at lumabas kami ng simbahan.

"When will you leave again?"tanong niyang seryuso ngunit nahimigan ko ang panunukso.

"Hindi ko alam. One of these days I'll to start to handle our business."I answered without giving him a glance.

Carlos repeatedly sighs. Hindi niya na sinundan pa nang ilang tanong. Both of his large hands are on the top of the steering wheel making the car run on its average speed. It might be nice to hear his opinion about my possible decision so I ask him. His a business expert after all.

"Do you think I can handle it well?"

We've got three seconds of glimpsing each other. His face went back looking at the road while I remained looking at his side face.

"Of course. I've seen you being determined way back in helping your father with the ways you can so you well. You just have to believe in yourself, Marti. You'll be excellent in business field."

"But what if I failed handling the job and my people?"

"You shouldn't self doubt. Failure is always on someone's way. I do have failures in my life but I've got eagerness and persistence to backlash it. You must have that too."aniya.

I shook my head and looked outside. May failures rin pala siya sa buhay kong ganito na siya ka angat ngayon?

"Ano ano naman 'yon? Parang wala naman yata."

"I failed when I loss you..."

Natigil ako sa paghinga at pinroseso ang kanyang sinabi. Kahit kailan talaga ang pagiging intimidating niya sa labas na pang anyo ay kabaliktaran sa kanyang panloob. Just like this one. He seems to be comfortable saying words right in my face without even thinking what's my reaction. Hindi ko inakalang sa dami ng pwede niyang ipagbago naging insensitive na rin siya pagdating sa ibang tao.

Days after Kai's incident happened was when I took the risks and responsibilities. I don't really know what's ahead of me sitting on that chair wearing a corporate attire facing and talking with those business associates but it's really that destiny has appointed me to it. I've got motivator and generous people behind my back that somehow making my fears slowly disappear. It's on the will, it's purposeful and all I have to do is try my very best.

Naalala ko pa ang nangyari sa mismong araw na pinasa ni dad ang tanging posisyon niya sa aking pangalan. I was extremely nervous back then. I'm freezing and my hands were terribly shaking even my whole body. Sa pinagsamang init at lamig ay halos hindi ko na kayanin ang panginginig. Good thing Frances was with me the whole time in daddy's office to somehow help me relax. Seeing those respected businessmen's faces almost choked to death. Lalo pa't naroon si Carlos at ang mapanuri niyang titig sa akin. His stares were always been like that but at that time it's something different. It's foreign and I can't read it. Gusto ko nang hayaan ang lupa na kainin ako at ibalik kung kailan ko gusto.

"I'm so proud of you."Tita said in her own soft voice.

It's been three days and felt like a deja vu.

"Thank you, Tita."

We both planned to have a dinner together because she wasn't able to attend our meeting last time. She's busy in Ilo Ilo for some business fare of hers. As much as possible, I wanted my schedule to be flexible for her. Ayoko rin naman sana lunurin ang sarili sa trabaho para magkaroon ng sapat na oras para sa kanilang lahat. Although I find it hard to maintain I still wanna try.