MS 2: To Own Her (Completed)

Epilogue

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They used to tell me before that being the eldest in the family is hard. At first I didn't believe them but as time goes by I realized that, indeed, they're right. Not because of the pressure coming from my parents. They aren't like that. Me and my younger siblings have the freedom to do what we want and choose what we like. I realised that the pressure I am coping up sometimes came from my siblings. They were the ones who still needs guidance and assistance towards things they do, doesn't matter if they think it's good for them. At the age of twenty three I was the one who became their guardian. My parents are always out of the country for business the reason why we seldom does family bonding. Noong una, naintindihan ko pero kalaunan napagod rin. Most of the times I couldn't control my siblings anymore. Si Conrad, nakikinig sa mga utos ko pero hindi sumusunod. Palpak palagi ang kinalabasan ng plano. Meanwhile, Carson is the stubborn one. Palaging nagka-cut ng klase niya at kung saan saan gagala kasama ang barkada. Party, drink and smoke almost every night. There are days when his principal wants me to go to there school so we could talk with his behavior. He's literally my pain in the ass for life. And last but not the least, si Caroline. She's a smart girl like our mum. She's got high remarks in her classes but very spoiled and brat. Sumunod sa ugali ni Carson. Only that she's not into bars and alcohol. Mahilig lang sa shopping at kung ano ano pang makakapagbutas ng bulsa ng pamilya.

Whenever we're into a serious conversation we always end up fighting with each other. We couldn't just agree over one thing. Patalinuhan kung tawagin. Pataasan ng pride. At tuwing nagkakagulo na kaming apat si Caroline ang unang tatawag sa parents namin at magsusumbong. In the end, they need to follow whatever I say because after all I am the eldest.

"Wala nang aalis. If one of you try to sneak out, I will know."banta ko sa dalawang magkaugali dahil pakiramdam kong tatakas na naman.

Conrad was the one who left us first. Paakyat na siya sa hagdan dala ang mga libro niya. He study a lot while these two...

"Okay, boss. Cancel nalang muna party namin ng mga Pals ko tonight."si Carson at tumalikud na rin.

Nagdilim ang paningin ko. Wala na talagang ibang gawain kundi magpaparty at barkada. The one who remained starring at me angrily is Caroline. Kunot noo ko siyang tinitigan.

"Nix is probably waiting right now. But duh! Boring mo talaga, kuya!"she snorted and turned her back at me.

Boring.

That word again. I've been called that way a lot by everyone around me. I go to college every day and go home at night to work some assignments my dad had left me. He said that when I turn thirty I will be the one to replace his position in our company. Responsibilidad ko bilang panganay na anak na mamuno at palaguin pa ang negosyo namin. Tanggap ko na iyon bilang kapalit sa buhay na binigay nila sa akin ni Mama. I needed to learn every single details so I'd be great in the future. Kaya siguro boring ako sa tingin ng lahat dahil bukod sa pagdidisiplina ng mga kapatid ko hindi ako lumalabas upang makipag inuman sa labas at magwaldas ng pera. I do drink in some occasions. I don't do parties in bars or even enjoy myself in some social gatherings. At napagtanto ko rin na boring talaga ang isang katulad ko.

"Tahimik mo..."puna ni Sofia sa aking harap.

Kadarating lang niya galing sa ibang bansa. She's residing in Italy but comes here in the Philippines thrice a month to personally see me. She's a childhood friend of mine and we're very close to each other. Although I know she's rich and can easily afford plane tickets but thinking about her reasons is somehow unreasonable. Hindi ko gusto ang pagpupunta niya rito sa Pinas para lang makita ako sa personal. Even when we are friends I still don't like it. I told her we can video call if I have time so we could catch up even when she's far away but then she declined the initiative. Matigas rin ang ulo niya kaya kung bakit minsan kahit hindi ko gusto ginagawa niya pa rin.