NCT's Baby Boy| 24th member ~ Lai Yu-han

"I'm so tired of trying to be perfect"

Trigger Warning: Talks about Suicide

Yu-Yu lately has been feeling stressed, overworked, and just tired overall. The child feels as if he needs to be perfect since he's in the public eye 24/7. He feels as if he can't really let out his emotions without bringing attention upon himself. Therefore, he promised himself to hide his emotions away.

In the process of hiding his emotions away, he was only hurting himself by doing that. He's had to act so perfect ever since he became a trainee that he doesn't know how to actually feel. He's not very open about his emotions, because he doesn't want to worry or alarm his members.

It's kinda normal for Yu-Yu to put others before himself. He wasn't really surprised himself when he started to feel stressed and tired. Lately, he's been stressing and overworking himself to the point where he'll get upset with himself if he messes up a little on a step.

The child broke down in the middle of the practice room earlier in the day.

Earlier in the day

In the WayV practice room

Yu-Yu was sitting on YangYang's lap as the members went over the dance parts for 'Bad Alive'. Yu-Yu was busy thinking and stressing out about the other comebacks that he had to get ready for in the upcoming weeks. Yu-Yu just wanted to sleep due to his body aching from all the dance practices.

Yu-Yu let out a silent sigh when he realized that he wouldn't be able to get much sleep for the week. The young child remembered that he had to get three songs done, choreograph for bighit, look over the playlist for 127, three interviews, and attend dance practices for all four units.

YangYang somehow heard the younger's sigh. "What's wrong bubba?" Yu-Yu lied, "Nothing's wrong... I just had something stuck in my throat." YangYang believed the lie and turned his gaze back onto the other memebers. Yu-Yu spaced out for a bit before he heard Kun calling his name. 

"Yu-Yu ah!" The younger turned his attention to Kun, "Gege were you calling my name?" Kun nodded his head. Kun explained to Yu-Yu, "You'll be in the center during the first chorus, and then you'll be next to Hendery for the second chorus and the rest of the dance." Yu-Yu nodded his head before sending a dimple smile towards Hendery.

Hendery giggled at the younger's cute action. Yu-Yu gently got off of YangYang's lap, and he walked over towards his pouch and took out a banana milk.
Yu-Yu decided to take out a book to read while sipping on the sweet beverage. Yu-Yu was about to sit down, but then the choreographer walked in screaming that it was time to go over the dance.

"Yu-Yu put that book down, you can read it later after practice." The young idol slightly pouted as he placed his book down. Yu-Yu waddled over to his area in the practice room. The other members were already in their positions. About two hours later, the other members were done learning their parts, but the Maknae was still going over the dance.

The choreographer asked Yu-Yu softly, "Honey, I think you can rest now. You've been going over this step like ten times already." Xiaojun noticed the choreographer struggling to grab Yu-Yu's attention, so he walked up to Yu-Yu and tried to help his fellow member out. "Bubba, you need to sit down and rest. You're going to pass out if you keep pushing yourself."