NCT's Baby Boy| 24th member ~ Lai Yu-han

"You never walk alone."

Yu-Yu has always had a huge fear of being alone. Not many people knew that... but it's kinda obvious. Many fans were shocked when an interview came out discussing about the young idol's fear. The fans were surprised and worried about Yu-Yu.

In the interview, Yu-Yu revealed many things that made people realize that there was a lot more to the idol than what's shown. It caused everyone to rethink everything about what many idols and humans go through.

Present

During the interview

Yu-Yu smiled up at Namjoon who happened to be the host for Yu-Yu's interview. Namjoon stared at Yu-Yu like a proud father. Namjoon spoke for a little while, up until it was time for Yu-Yu to introduce himself.

Yu-Yu adjusted his glasses as he showed his dimple smile to the camera. "Annyeonghaseyo. NCT to the world. I'm Lai Yu-Han and it's a pleasure to be here today." Namjoon cooed and squished Yu-Yu's cheeks, "You're so adorable! You're shorter than Jimin."

Yu-Yu put his head down, while letting out tiny giggles. Yu-Yu whispered into the mic, "I'm 155 cm so it's kinda short for someone my age. I'm like a flower and you're a tree. Don't worry Lucas Gege... you'll always be NCT Dream's tree."

Namjoon bursted out laughing. Namjoon softly asked Yu-Yu, "You ready kiddo?" Yu-Yu nodded his head. Namjoon handed a banana milk to Yu-Yu, as he flipped through his index cards.

Yu-Yu took a sip from the beverage, as he adjusted his glasses to see better. Namjoon asked a curious question, "What's your schedule for this week?"

Yu-Yu let out a nervous laugh, "I'm heading to Busan for a photo shoot. I have to go film for three dramas, Four Dance practices, Two studio sessions, three fansigns, one v-live, and a few interviews. Not too much this week... hehe."

Yu-Yu spat out his coffee after hearing Yu-Yu's hectic schedule. Yu-Yu handed Namjoon a napkin. Yu-Yu commented, "It's okay. You'll grow numb to everything. I no longer feel like I'm living. You got to push through whatever task is thrown your way.

There are few times where I faint or collapse, and I've learned that pushing your body to its limits isn't great. You have to sacrifice your health sometimes as an idol." Namjoon smiled sadly at
Yu-Yu.

Yu-Yu shot Namjoon a reassuring look.

Namjoon nodded his head and asked another question, "What do you like to do in your free time?"
Yu-Yu's doe eyes lit up at the question. "I like to sleep, eat, and sleep even more. I also enjoy reading and doing photography. I tend to go to museums in my free time."

Namjoon whispered quietly, "That's my child"
Yu-Yu joking nodded his head. "You're my dad." Namjoon ruffled Yu-Yu's curly hair.

Namjoon slowly asked, "What are you scared of? Fear wise or scared of in general." Yu-Yu's dimple smile disappeared after hearing the question.

Namjoon noticed and tried to reassure the child.
"You don't have to answer the question. Feel free to skip a question if you don't feel comfortable answering."

Yu-Yu shook his need reassuring Namjoon. "It's fine, hyung."

Yu-Yu gently adjusted his glasses, before he answered the question. "I guess I'm afraid of being alone and not having anyone. To be honest, I'm nothing without my members. They became my family the day they came into my life.

I truly am nothing without them. I fear for the day we disband, and I have no one to come home to or to call family. It's always in the back of my head no matter what we're doing. The thought of my brothers and I disbanding... it hurts too much. I cry myself to sleep at night thinking about it a lot.

I got used to people walking out on me, when it was getting too difficult to be around me. You kinda stop trusting and letting people into your life. It's like why should you let people in who are gonna end up leaving like everyone else. It was mainly the fear of being alone once again.

The fear eats your soul away... you want it to go away but it doesn't. I think of myself without my members as a lonely orphaned child. Yeah... being alone or the thought of being alone bothers me. It takes me a while to let people into my life, so when I finally accept them into my life they most of the time walk right
back out.

I'm tired of people giving up on me.

Am I really not worth the time? Why's it so difficult for people to be around me? What do I do to scare people off? Am I supposed to feel this pain until death? Was I placed onto Earth to be taken advantage of til the point where I break.

I guess I'm not worth it."

Namjoon's heart clenched at hearing Yu-Yu's answer. He never thought Yu-Yu had these thoughts, nor felt as if he truly had no one at the end of the day.

Namjoon tried to move on with the questions, but
Yu-Yu's answer kept lingering in his head. The older tried to continue the interview, but he decided to cut the interview short for Yu-Yu.

Namjoon smiled at the camera, "It was a pleasure to interview the amazing Lai Yu-Han. Can't wait to see you all next week back here." Yu-Yu softly waved to the three cameras.

The director shouted, "DONE!"

Yu-Yu was about to leave the set, but he felt a tap on his shoulder. The child stared up at the figure, "Did you need something, hyung?" Namjoon sighed, "Follow me... I don't want anyone to hear any private matters."

The child waddled behind Namjoon as they headed back to his waiting room. Namjoon motioned for the child to sit down. Yu-Yu took a seat and looked anywhere but the older.

Namjoon blurted out, "Why didn't you tell me you felt that way? You know that I'm always here for you."

Yu-Yu stared down at the ground, "I don't know." Namjoon grunted, "Don't lie to me... I won't hesitate to talk to Taeyong about keeping a closer eye on you. I'm worried about you... especially after today."

Yu-Yu looked up at Namjoon with a heartbroken look, "You want to know why I don't ever open up... because when I do people walk out of my life and leave me alone. Why should I open to people who'll one day leave me to be alone.

What's the point, hyung? I know at the end of the day I'll be so alone, yet crowded by a lot of people. I'm a nobody without my group. All people know me is 'NCT's Maknae'... I have a name and emotions, but no one cares or tries to be there when I'm calling out for help.

Yeah... my members try their best, but I don't open up to them cuz I feel like a burden. It hurts so much to feel this alone. There's your answer hyung."

Namjoon broke down at hearing that Yu-Yu no longer thought of himself as an individual.
"Y-you know that you'll always have me to call, so don't think you're alone or a burden. It breaks my heart to see you like this.

You're like the child I've always wanted, so I really don't want you to feel like you're alone. You have me and your members. I know that you might here this a lot, but I truly mean it when I say that you'll never walk alone. Now repeat after me... I'll never walk alone."

"I'll never walk alone."

"You got me... I got you."