Chapter 46
The hallway was abandoned when I entered. With trembling hands, I slowly sauntered towards the living room.
Natigilan ako nang makita si Axev na nakatayo sa dulo ng hagdan. He was about to go up but he saw me and he stopped. Umawang ang labi ko nang masalo ang blangkong tingin niya.
While I was on my up, I was thinking of so many things, debating a lot of arguments, and assessing what I should say. However, now that I am in front of him, I am out of words.
"Why are you here?" He asked in the coldest voice I have ever heard.
My lips parted as I try to utter something, but to no avail, I only managed to lift a finger. My heart was pounding and clenching at the same time. I swallowed the lump in my throat and urged myself to say something.
"If you have nothing to say, then I have nothing to say too." Aniya at tinalikuran ako.
I watched him make his way to the stairs. Pumikit ako ng mariin at huminga ng malalim.
"What were you doing in my condo?" I asked in a low voice.
Tumigil siya sa kalagitnaan ng hagdan. Tumitig ako sa kaniyang likuran na pakiramdam ko pinanlalamigan din ako. I can't tell if he's angry or not. His eyes are blank like he shut his doors to me. At hindi ako sanay na gano'n.
I saw how his shoulders elevated and dropped. He took a deep breath three times before he faced me. His jaw was clenching so bad and he looks so tensed.
Napaatras ako nang mabilis siyang bumaba ng hagdan at naglakad patungo sa akin. Tumigil siya nang dalawang hakbang na lamang ay mararating na niya ako. Kinagat ko ng mariin ang pang-ibabang labi nang nakita ang galit sa kaniyang mga mata.
"I was near to being crazily mad because you're not answering my texts or calls for the past days. What am I doing there? Hindi pa ba malinaw sayo?" Aniya sa malamig na tono.
I heaved a deep breath and looked away. I couldn't stand his stare. Pakiramdam ko hinuhugot nito ang lakas ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong susunod na sasabihin. Naba-blangko ang isip ko.
He licked his lips and nodded. "What was he doing in your condo? Ano bang hindi ko alam, Dea?"
Nag-angat ako ng tingin. Igting ng husto ang kaniyang panga at kunot ang noo. Bumalik ang isipan ko sa mga nakaraang araw. I bit my lip and puffed a breath. Hindi ko alam kung paano ipapaliwanag sa kaniya pero may parte sa aking ayaw nang magpaliwanag pa.
"You don't need to know," I replied.
Pumikit siya ng mariin at mas lalong kumuyom ang panga. Huminga siya ng malalim at nang magmulat ay bahagya nang namumula ang kaniya mga mata.
"Because I have no right?" He probed. "Because this is just nothing but a no-strings-attached relationship?" Aniya na parang alam niya ang tumatakbo sa isip ko.
I bit my lip to stop myself from saying anything. He stared at me. He clicked his neck and nodded.
"Then what about the kiss? What about the kiss, Dea?" His brows furrowed.
Kumunot ang aking noo. "What kiss?"
He tilted his head. He smiled blankly before he swung back his gaze on me.
"Do I need to turn a blind eye on that too?"
"What kiss are you talking about?" Bahagyang tumaas ang tono ng boses ko.
"You kissed him!" Mariin niyang sinabi. "You look so drunk with the kiss! I told you, I will do whatever you want me to do but I also told you not to play with my feelings. Stop playing with my feelings!"
