Chapter 48
"Walang lugar ang nagmamagaling dito! Nag-uumpisa pa lang kayo, ganiyan na ang attitude niyo?"
Pumikit ako ng mariin nang mas lalong nanginig sa galit ang boses ni Dr. Samuel. I was in the Ob-gyn when they mandated all the first-year residents to gather in his office. Pagdating ko ay nagse-sermon na siya at galit.
A resident doctor misidentified a patient that led to misdiagnosis. Hindi ko alam kung anong totoong nangyari. It's just been four months since we started our residency and this is the first time Dr. Samuel got this angry. There were already instances where he'd scold us for our mistakes but this is beyond his previous anger.
"Hindi ba't iyan palagi ang pinapaalala sa inyo? Double check every time you identify a patient! Do not be so relaxed! You're still starting and yet you act like you've been in this field for so long!"
Nakayuko kaming lahat at tahimik. Suminghap ako at kahit pagod at inaantok ay wala akong magawa kundi tumayo ro'n at tanggapin ang galit niya. It was like all for one, one for all. Ang mali ng isa, mali ng lahat.
I had my fair share of mistakes that I was very remorseful of. Alam ko na sarili kong pagkakamali 'yon kaya kung posible lang ay hindi ko na maulit. However, I am still learning, even though I am already a Doctor. In fact, I feel like I'm back to square one but the difference is that this is the real game, the real deal.
"Buhay ang hawak niyo, hindi laruan na pwedeng pang ayusin kapag nasira dahil sa pagkakamali. Are you going to take responsibility for the life you'd lost because of your negligence? Will you?!"
Pagkalabas namin sa opisina ay nakarinig ako ng iyak. It was the resident who made a mistake. Some comforted her and some blamed her. I didn't want to comfort her nor blame her. Alam naming lahat na mali niya 'yon dahil dumaan na rin naman ang iba sa iba't ibang pagkakamali.
"Dr. Osiander, hanap ka sa ED."
Nilingon ko si Calum na winawagayway ang phone niya. Kinapa ko ang pager na nasa bulsa ng gown at tiningnan 'yon. I didn't receive any message. Nilapitan ko siya.
"Sino?"
"Si Mrs. Ramon," tukoy niya sa isang nurse.
"Oh, alright. Thank you." I nodded at him.
"Sabay na tayo, I have to double-check a code status order." Aniya.
I nodded and we made our way to the emergency department while talking about what happened. I was right. A patient was misidentified that headed to misdiagnosis. A consultant learned this mistake when she asked the patient about her medicines. Magulo kaya naman kahit ako'y napahilot na lang sa sentido.
Natigilan ako sa kalagitnaan ng hallway nang makita kung sino ang nasa labas ng emergency department. For a moment, I was shocked to see him, especially when I found his eyes on me. What is he doing here in the hospital? He's even in his semi-formal attire!
"Dr. Osiander?"
Napakurap ako at napalingon kay Calum na nagtatakang nakatingin sa akin. He cocked his head to the emergency department, urging me to continue. Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga at nagtuloy sa paglalakad, hindi matanggal ang tingin kay Axev.
Nakapamulsa siya at nakatayo sa labas ng emergency department. May ibang pasyente ro'n at mga nurse. Sinong kasama niya? May sakit ba siya? Anong ginagawa niya rito?
Habang papalapit kami sa kaniya ay palakas ng palakas ang kabog ng dibdib ko. It has been three days since I last saw him. There were times where I'd be caught up with what happened back at Law's birthday party and that I can't still believe he's back, pero madalas sa sobrang daming ginagawa ay nakakalimutan ko na.
