I don't know what to do anymore. Everything feels like a dream. Hanley being in a coma, my mother being killed, going to the funeral parlor with my father, picking out my mother's outfit, casket, flowers. It's all to much. My dad is staying strong, but I expect him to break. He has no job and the only way we got money is now gone. I told Ashton I'd like to work with him again. He was upset, it kind went like this:
"FUCK NO KAYLA!" Ashton yells, pushing the chair back.
"Ashton I have to." I say.
"No you don't Kayla." Ashton says, hands running through his hair. "You can't. Your Dad makes money. You're fine,"
"Dad lost his job Ashton." I say, looking down. "That's why I have to Ashton."
"Kayla." Ashton says shaking his head. "Alright. I'll tell him."
Luke hardly leaves my side. I'm greatful for that. I don't know what I would do without him. Dad's let him stay the night, which is wide for my dad to let any boys stay, but dad knows that Luke is there to help me. "I miss her Luke." is usually what I cry into his shoulder and he always replies, "I know you do." He'll pat my hair and rub my back.
"Hey." Luke says, taking me out of my thoughts and back into reality. They are going to have my mother out tonight and tomorrow and her funeral Monday.
"Yeah?" I say.
"Do you want anything to eat? I'll go get you something." He asks.
"No, no I'm fine." I lie. I haven't ate since the night of my mother's passing.
"You're lying Kayla." Luke says. "I'm going to run to McDonald's, now what do you want?'
I lay my head on the table. "Chicken nuggets, please." I finally say.
"Okay." Luke says, getting up and kissing my head. "I'll be back as soon as possible. If you need me call me."
"Okay." I say, face still into the table.
Luke walks out the door and I'm finally left alone to my thoughts. Left in the house that my mom worked so hard for us to live in. The house my mom helped clean. The place she made her famous turkey cassrole. I told her I hated it, but I secertly loved it. I wish I could tell her. I let out a scream and cry again. "PLEASE COME BACK!" I yell.
I'm crying for 2 minutes until my phone goes off. Text from Ashton.
*Ashton: He wants to meet with you.*
*Me: Who?*
*Ashton: Carson.*
*Me: Is he letting me back In?"
*Ashton: Yeah, but he wants to meet with you Monday afternoon.*
*Me: That's the day of my mother's funeral*
*Ashton: I know. :(*
I sit there and think. I have to do it. I have to get my dad and I some money. I have to do it.
*Me: I'll be there.*
*Ashton: Are you sure you want to go back through this?*
*Me: I'm positive Ashton.*
*Ashton: Okay, we'll leave after.*
Luke finally comes back with food.
"You've been crying?" He asks, sitting down the food.
"No shit captain obvious." I say. "I'm sorry." I say looking down.
"It's okay." He says, sitting down beside me. A tear slips down my face. Luke reaches up and wipes it away. "Everything is okay. She watching over you know Kayla."
"I know." I sniffle. "I know."
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As Augustus Waters said, pain demands to be felt. Well pain is being a really greedy bitch today. As I sit with my dad on one side of me, Luke on the other side and Ashton beside Luke, even Calum came to be there for me. He said Hanley's brother came in and was going to stay awhile. We watch videos and pictures of my mom that people brought in. You hear sniffles everywhere.
It came to the end, where everyone came to hug my dad and I. Some people I knew, and some I had no idea who they were. I watched as they wheeled my moms casket out and loaded her into the car. Just like every funeral, we all went to the cemetary and that's where I lost it. My knees went weak and I fell into Luke's arm, crying and screaming.
"Kayla! Are you okay?" Luke asks while holding me up.
"NO! SHE CAN'T BE GONE! PLEASE MAKE HER COME BACK! LUKE MAKE HER COME BACK!" I yell.
"I can't Kayla. I'm sorry." I look up into Luke's eyes and notice he is crying as well. He helps me over to the seats they have for my dad and I. We sit there during the prayer and we leave again. We start walking back to the cars.
'I'm going back to the hospital. Luke you wanna go?" Calum asks Luke.
"N-" Luke starts to say.
"No, you should go. You've been with me all weekend. Go visit with Hanley. I'll stay with Ashton." I tell Luke.
"Are you sure Kayla?" Luke asks.
"Positive. We'll come up later." I say.
Luke hugs me. "Be careful." He tells me
"Thank you for staying with me" I tell him.
"I promised I wouldn't leave." He laughs. "I love you." His eyes got big, like he didn't mean to say it out loud. He turns and walks past Calum to Calum's car.
"Well, I'll see ya later guys." Calum says, trying not to laugh at Luke's embarrassment.
Ashton and I get into his car.
"Are you sure you really wanna do this?" Ashton asks, hoping I'll back out.
"Positive Irwin." I say.
We drive in silence for a while, until we get to an abanded building. There is only one car parked there. We get out and head over to the car. A man gets out of the car and walks towards Ashton and I. He looked not much older than Ashton and I. He is very good looking. Dark hair, muscular, has an almost beard. Damn, isn't my boss hot!
"Hey Carson." Ashton says, grabbing his hand.
"Sup Ash. So this is Kayla?" He ask, smiling at me. Damn, that smile too.
"Yeah, I'm Kayla." I say, reaching my hand out to him. He shakes it. Oh, his hands! Stop Kayla.
"Ashton told me a lot about you." Carson says.
"Oh." I say, looking over to Ashton.
I must've had a mascara under my eye, because he reaches over and wipes it.
"You had something under your eye." He says smiling. "Anyway, I just wanted to finally meet you. You know how everything works I'm guessing."
"Yeah, I do." I say.
"Well, I have to get going. Sorry it was such a short meeting, but I've got to get going." He shakes Ashton's hand and grabs mine and kisses the top of it, "It was a pleasure to meet you, Kayla." he says, looking up and winking at me.
"You too Carson." I say.
Ashton and I head back to his car and head to the hospital. When we get to the hospital, we head up to Hanley's room. Luke and Calum are sitting there, watching a game on TV.
"There you guys are." Calum says, hitting Luke.
"Oh hey." Luke says, blushing.
Ashton and I sit down and watch the game too. It's not long till the door and someone walks in. Holy Shit. I look over to Ashton and he just stares at the person. I swear, my mouth could be hitting the floor.
Calum gets up and walks over to the person. "Hey there. Guys, this is Carson, Hanley's brother."
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Fiksi PenggemarKayla Holt was the girl everyone was scared of. She was known to be in gangs, being a hooker, or a drug dealer. The only part true is she's a drug dealer. Luke Hemmings was known as the cute, likable, and good guy. When Kayla and Luke first meet, th...
