His Slave

CHAPTER 20

Donghae's POV:

It seemed like time stopped moving forward along with my heartbeats as I couldn't believe my ears. Was it really happening? Did Hyukjae really admit how he destroyed everything? Was he really here or was it all just another tale of my daily chimeras? My half naked body shuddered and I couldn't figure out whether it was the cold breez coming from the glass windows or.... Hyukjae.

Suddenly, I felt my body getting drained out of energy and I fell to the floor on my knees. Now, I was at the same level of Hyukjae who kept looking to the floor for all the time.

"Please.... say something." He mumbled almost in an inaudible voice which I assumed that he was talking to himself. But soon my presumption was proved wrong when he angled his head up to mine and his doe eyes made contact with mine. His face was dull & gloomy and his sorrowful eyes were asking me to say something. Was he really sad? But what was I supposed to say? Was there even something to be said? If yes, then where to begin?

"What... do you wa-want me to say?" I stuttered in a low voice as my lips trembled out of nervousness. "Anything... Baby." He murmured and I enraged with pure disgust. "DO NOT CALL ME THAT." I fumed with such anger that I didn't realise that we were inches apart from smashing our bodies against eachother's which I wanted to do achingly.

"Don't hold yourself back." He softly whispered, taking my face inbetween his palms. "Let it all out." He breathed out, looking directly into my eyes and I found his eyes were wet but there was something unreadable in his eyes which I couldn't figure out.

"Stop it Hyukjae." I groaned as I was getting painfully closer to him, almost sitting on his lap. "Stop what?" He questioned confidently, making me all startled when he suddenly lifted me up and made me sit on his lap in a swift movement. My thighs rested in each side of his lap. His grip on my body was so tight that it was impossible for me to move when I started to free myself from him. "Please.... stop moving....just for once." He mumbled resting his head on my chest and inhaled deeply making my mind go all blank as if he was taking in all of my scent. I wanted to part away from him but my body was betraying me. No matter how much I wanted to get away from the man whom I claimed to love and who broke my heart, even betrayed me, in the end of the day, my heart would still seek out for him and I hated feeling this way. It made me feel pathetic. I knew that I wanted him back, wanted us to be together again but this person, who was forcibly keeping me in his embrace wasn't the same person who I used to love. This man is so unfamiliar to me. "You....you have no right to ask me for anything." I commanded as I tried to control my emotions which were making me weak all over again and I didn't want to be that weak Donghae again.

"Your heartbeats.... Donghae, your heart is racing like a mad horse." He grunted completely ignoring my protests and goosebumps aroused all over my body when his husky voice vibrated on my skin which made him chuckled slightly. "Is it because of me?" He asked unashamedly, tilting his head up to connect his hopeful eyes with mine. "Do I still give you butterflies?" He asked again taking my hands in his and set them on his own chest. "Can you feel my heartbeats as well?" He asked again and I could sense a glimmer of hope in his thick voice.

"I don't feel anything." I blurted out blankly looking away, avoiding his eyes. I tried to take my hands off his chest but he gripped them tightly in his hold and pulled me closer to his body. "Look at me." He demanded and I didn't obey . "Don't make it hard, Donghae." He groaned and I looked at him in utter disbelief. "I'm making it hard?" I grilled as my teeth grinded on their own. Was he real for now? "Shall I remind you of what you have done, you shameless asshole?" I screamed on his face as my veins were popping out in pure anger. "I am well aware of what I have done, Lovebird." He mumbled looking down and started to fiddle with my fingers. "Good and you're gonna live with it for the rest of your life." I seethed.

"Forgive me.... Please..." he choked out looking at me and I found tears in his eyes and it made me feel like he was trying hard to look sad. He was crying all of a sudden now!! It was hard for me to believe. "Sorry, what did you just say?" I couldn't help but chuckled humourlessly at him. "You want me to forgive you?.... Can you please tell me which action of your is forgivable?" I questioned because definitely I wanted to know from where he was getting such audacity. "Now, you look at me and answer me, Lee fucking Hyukjae, what made you think that you would be forgiven." I boiled, tilting his head up using my both hands so that he would look straight into my face. "Cause...I have only you...and.... You are my home, Lee Donghae." He murmured resting his forehead on mine. "You promised me that you would always be there for me even in my darkest days...you promised me that you would never leave me.....no matter what.... You can not turn your back on me, Lovebird. Now, it's time for you to stick to your words, Donghae." He spoke, looking into my eyes in a manner as if he was telling me that I was the one who was at fault. "It wasn't me who broke the promise, Hyukjae..... It was you who left me, broke me, betrayed me, ruined my entire life and it wasn't enough for you that..... that you raped an innocent girl." I seethed through my greeted teeth. "You meant.... Rheanna." Anger fuelled in every single vein of my body when he mentioned the name of the girl who suffered the most amongst all of us and what made me furious was there was a satisfied devilish smirk plastered on Hyukjae's face when he uttered her name. As if he was proud of what he had done.

"It's still not over yet, Lovebird.....and it will never be."