Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Homophobia

I sat with George like this for five minutes and it were the best minutes I ever had. We continued walking and sat down again. I didn't dare to do it again, but when we were on our way home George started falling asleep. I wrapped my arm around him and he let his head rest on my shoulder. He fell asleep with his head on my shoulder.

'You might have to carry him,' I whispered when we arrived at home.

'You don't want to carry your crush?'

'I'm not strong enough.'

'He liked it when you wrapped his arms around you.'

'Did he?'

'He blushed.'

'No, he didn't.'

'He did, but you were too busy with blushing yourself.'

'I think I'm in love,' I whispered.

'I know you are and that's fine.'

'I don't want to be gay or bi.'

'Nothing is wrong with being gay or bisexual.'

'But everyone will hate me forever.'

'I won't and George won't either.'

'He will if he figures out my feelings.'

'I tell you, he likes you too.'

'He said he is straight.'

'So did you.'

'Fine.'

We stood up and Sapnap carried George inside, laying him down on the couch. He was sleeping so peacefully. I wished to kiss his beautiful face. I sat in the couch and let his head rest in my lap. He turned to his side in his sleep and grabbed my knee. I blushed, he had no idea it was me. I wrapped my arm around his chest so he wouldn't fall. When I thought Sapnap wasn't looking, I kissed Georges cheeks. Sapnap giggled because he did see it. My cheeks heated up even more and I looked at my hands.

'Sorry,' I muttered. 'I shouldn't have done that.'

'That was actually the cutest thing I have ever seen. He holds you like your a pillow,' he giggled.

'He doesn't know it's me.'

'Dream,' George suddenly mumbled.

Was he awake? I startled and nodded. 'Yes?'

'You're handsome even though you don't see,' he mumbled a little sleep drunk.

'W-what.'

'He is still asleep,' Sapnap said. He smirked.

'You're so thin, but still beautiful. I still want to be friends if you were fatter.'

'Should we wake him up?' I asked.

Sapnap shrugged. 'Cute, isn't it?'

'You're cute,' he mumbled and startled. He suddenly woke up and looked around him.

'Was I sleep talking?' he muttered. As soon as he realised our positions he sat up.

'You did sleep talk.'

'What did I say?'

'That Dream is handsome, beautiful and cute.'

'Oh, I was just sleep talking. Don't worry, Dream. I'm not gay, don't worry.'

His words stung me like knifes.

'What would be wrong with being gay?' I asked bluntly.

'Well, it's just wrong.'

'Dude, what the heck?' Sapnap now asked. 'What would you do if someone you knew was gay?'

'I don't know. I don't know anyone, I have no idea, I would be caught of guard.'

'Since when are you homophobic?' I yelled.

'Since my parents always told me being gay is wrong.'

I couldn't take it anymore. I jumped up, what made him startled.

'Well goodbye then,' I whispered with tears in my eyes. Before I knew I was shaking and crying my eyes out. My crush was homophobic and his best friend was gay. Gay for him.

'What do you mean goodbye?'

'I'm coming with Dream,' Sapnap said.

'I don't understand, why are you leaving? Where are you going?'

'Away from you.'

'Is it bad that I'm homophobic then? Being gay is just wrong right? Do you not think it is wrong?'

'No, we don't,' Sapnap yelled. 'And you watch your words. Choose them carefully now. You don't know what's going on and I think I don't want to see you for a while anymore.'

'Same,' I said, tears streaming down my face. 'I didn't know you were like this and I must say- it hurts like hell.'

'I don't understand what's going on.'

'NO BECAUSE YOU'RE DUMB AS HELL,' Sapnap screamed. 'HOMOPHOBIC ARSEHOLE.'

'What? I- my parents just raised me like that.'

'You know what George?' I started. 'You know what?'

'No, I don't understand where you are going.'

'I AM GAY, GEORGE.'

'Oh.'

And Sapnap and I walked away.

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