Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Self hate (panic)

'Dude, were you kissing?' Sapnap asked me when George walked away.

'Well no, because you walked in.'

'Aww, were you about to kiss him?'

'Shut up, he probably would have pushed me anyway.'

'What did you feel?'

'Well, I did kiss his cheek and my stomach just exploded.'

'Dreamie boy is in love.'

'Shut up, I just like him.'

'Gay.'

'SAP!'

'Are you two okay?' George asked. He walked in and looked confused.

'What did you hear?' I muttered.

'I heard you yell Sap,' he impersonated me.

I blushed, that was so extremely cute.

'Do I sound that cute,' I whispered loud for only Sapnap to hear. He giggled.

'Dreamieeeeee.'

'Shut up, Sap.'

'Now let's get away here in this stupid small bathroom with us three.'

'I can leave you and Dream alone here. Last time you seemed to enjoy it.'

'Sap, shut the hell up,' I muttered angry.

'We didn't do anything,' George said blushing.

'You're face says otherwise.'

'We just hugged.'

'George and Dream, kissing-.'

I hit him. 'Just break your leg or something,' I said. I grinned about my own comment and Sapnaps disappointed face.

'I agree,' George added.

George definitely knew we were about to kiss. Did he mind? Could I try it again?

'Can I speak with George for a second?'

George and Sapnap nodded and I grabbed Georges hand, pulling him upstairs. His hand was really warm. Maybe mine were just cold. We sat down on my bed and I sighed deeply.

'George, about that-.'

'I know I'm sorry. I'm straight, you are straight. I don't know why, I guess the moment again. I didn't actually want to kiss you, don't worry.'

My heart broke in a million pieces. He just rejected me without even knowing. Well, I wasn't going to try it again, that's what I knew for sure.

'Yeah, sure. The moment,' I whispered, fighting against my tears. 'The moment.'

'Are you okay?'

'Yeah, I just want to sleep.'

'Why are your eyes so watery.'

'I'm tired, can I sleep, please.'

'Fine, do I send Sapnap?'

'Why? To read me a freaking story? LEAVE.'

I felt bad for screaming at him, but I was heartbroken.

'Sorry,' George mumbled and he walked away. I heard footsteps on the stairs and Sapnap was coming up.

'Why was he screaming?' I heard him ask George. 'I don't know, he got mad at me.'

Sapnap walked in on me crying my eyes out and ran towards the bed. 'What's wrong? Stay calm, Dream. Stay calm. What happened?'

'He basically r-rejected me,' I sobbed.

'What? Why?'

'He said it was just the moment, that he is straight and he didn't want to kiss me at all.'

'Maybe he thought you didn't want too.'

I started crying harder and hugged Sapnap tightly. 'You were right. I do like him so much.'

'Did you actually almost kiss him?'

'Yes, I did. He leaned in too, so I thought he wanted it too.'

'Maybe he is just scared to say he wanted it too.'

'Why would he?'

'Maybe he didn't figure out he likes you yet.'

'Or he just doesn't like me. Why are you so positive? He doesn't like me and he will never. When I asked him to talk, I actually wanted to try and kiss him again, but he just directly said he didn't meant to, so well.'

'Just take it slowly. Try flirting.'

'I always flirt with him and he never noticed it.'

'He does notice, but he gets flustered. One of the things that make me think he might like you. He doesn't get flustered with me.'

'Don't give me hope.'

'But it's true.'

'I wish to kiss him.'

'I know, but maybe you will someday. Take it slowly, Dream.'

I cried all my emotions out in Sapnaps shirt and suddenly got so insecure again.

'Sapnap? Am I fatter after that chocolate?'

'Absolutely not. Dream, you can't gain anything from such a small piece.'

'I feel so much fatter.'

Sapnap grabbed my wrist and wrapped his fingers around it. 'Well, this is so thin.'

'No, it's not.'

'The gap between my fingers and your wrist is like this big,' he said pointing it out between his fingers.

'Fat.'

I poked in my fat on my stomach.

'Skin and bones.'

He softly poked my hipbone. 'This is all pure bones. I have a layer of fat over them.'

'I do too.'

'Not at all.'

Maybe George would like me if I wasn't this fat...

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