Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Self hate
-Eating disorder

(This chapter is just a little sad from Dreams part but no worries)

I went to my hotel and cried for the rest of the day. George tried texting me the whole time and he called me over a hundred times maybe. I didn't take the calls and I didn't read his messages, I was busy. I was combing my hair, I bought better clothes, I didn't eat anything and I exercised for at least two hours. I could go to him and ask him if he liked me better now.

I slept in the hotel and I woke up at midnight to work out again. I exercised for three hours, I didn't eat, I showered, put on deodorant and sighed deeply. Would George like me better now? What could I change? Maybe I needed more muscles? Or less fat? I knew I had to exercise more and I knew I should starve myself till I reached my goal weight.

I left the hotel at noon, I exercised some more and showered again, making sure I smelled good. I combed my hair perfectly, not as messy as it always was. I started walking towards Georges place and I rang the bell when I arrived there. It took a little before George opened and he looked at me. He had cried.

'Dream?'

'I understand you cheated, I wouldn't like myself either. Maybe if I'm thinner and if I'm dressed different you like me?'

'No.'

'Oh, I'll leave then,' I said.

He didn't say anything, he wasn't even impressed.

'Have you read my texts?'

'No.'

'Dream, will you please listen to me.'

'I don't know. I already understand, I would dislike myself too and definitely now I'm so fat. If I liked girls I would have chosen her too. She is pretty, the opposite of me. I'm sorry I kissed with you. I'm gay and I liked you, I understand if you didn't.'

'I did like you, in fact. I still like you.'

'No, you don't. You like her more than you like me. I understand. I only took a few hours to look better for you, but you don't like it, so I think I'm just leaving now. Can I at least hug you one last time?'

George directly hugged me and he didn't let go. 'Please let me explain.'

'You don't have to. Be happy with her, hopefully you guys enjoy each other. I guess I'm not your boyfriend anymore, but I loved our time together. Hopefully you can forgive me for kissing you and liking it.'

'Listen to me, please,' he shouted, letting go of me.

'No, George. There is nothing to explain. You kissed her and I understand, she might have been annoying but she is pretty. Sapnap booked me a ticket back to America. I'm leaving tomorrow.'

'But we would have two weeks left.'

'Until you cheated on me, George. I forgave you, but it hurts like hell.'

'Please, let me explain. Please.'

'But I already understand.'

'You don't, I didn't cheat on you, I-.'

'You kissed someone other than me, so that's cheating.'

'I-.'

'I forgave you.'

'LET ME EXPLAIN,' George now screamed.

I startled. 'You don't have to scream, you are scaring me.'

'I'm sorry, I didn't mean to scream at you.'

'Okay.'

'Can I now please explain?'

'Yes.'

'I-.'

My phone rang. I took the call and saw it was Sapnap.

'What?'

'Are you okay? Have you ate already?'

'No, I haven't. I'm currently standing in front of George. I thought he would like me again with different clothes and better hair, but he doesn't.'

'No, I like the old you,' he muttered.

I hung up on Sapnap after speaking to him for a while. He was mostly concerned and told me I should let George explain what was going on.

'George, would you like me if I was more muscular?'

'No, I like you like this.'

'Or if I was thinner than I am now? Because I get that, I will not eat for a few days so we can get back together?'

'Dream, stop it.'

'Do I have to exercise more? Or do I have to do sports? Do you like me more if I play football?'

'No, Dream. Just no.'

'I can do it if you want me back then.'

'I want you freaking back now.'

'Why?'

'I tried saving you, but I made everything worse.'

'Saving me?'

'YES, can you now please listen to me?'

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