Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder

I decided to tell my parents everything and George and Sapnap would help me. Since eating got such a big struggle, I couldn't hide it anymore. I would cry with every meal, I would purge, throw my food away. My parents would notice. Directly after George dressed up we went downstairs. My mum, dad and my brother were downstairs already and I sighed deeply.

'Mum, dad?' 

'Yes, sweetie?'

George wrapped his arm around my middle and rubbed my back slowly.

'I have to tell you something.'

George grabbed my hand with his other hand and kissed it. 'You can do it.'

'I think I uh- I have an eating disorder and a depression with anxiety.'

Everyone went completely quiet and the silence was breaking me. I didn't know how to react and grabbed Georges hand tightly.

'Oh sweetie,' my mum started. 'We were already suspecting it, but it's still so difficult to have it confirmed.'

'I choose to recover.'

'I'm very proud of you,' my dad added. 'Maybe we should look for a therapist.'

I shrugged. 'Maybe.'

My brother walked towards me. 'Clay, you should keep remembering that you're beautiful.'

'I feel so fat.'

'You're so thin,' my dad said.

'My weight is healthy.'

'I doubt that.'

'It's healthy.'

'But not for your body. Your body needs to weight more, we can all see your bones sticking out. You would be even more beautiful if you weighted a little more,' my mum said.

I looked at George. 'Am I ugly?'

He smiled and kissed my cheek. He needed to stand on the tip of his toes. It was cute.

'You're the most beautiful and handsome guy I have ever seen, but with a little more weight you would be even more beautiful.'

'It's going to be difficult, Dream, but I know you can do this,' Sapnap said.

'Mum and dad, George and Sapnap always helped me, but they almost have to leave. I'm so afraid I will lose all control if they are gone. And of course I will miss Sapnap, but I will miss George so much. I'm so mean-.'

'That's not mean. I'm your best friend and George is your boyfriend, of course you are going to miss him more than you are missing me.'

'I will miss you too.'

'Of course, I will too.'

'You can maybe visit George in England, but under one condition,' my dad said.

'What condition?'

'If you first gain a little weight and eat a little more. I don't know what else you did?'

'Purging.'

'No purging for two weeks and two weeks long three meals a day. If you do that, you might be able to visit him.'

I smiled. 'I will, I definitely will. I will visit George.'

'That's a good motivation, Dream,' Sapnap said.

I nodded. 'And I will do it. I want to visit him.'

'But Dream?' George asked.

I nodded heavily.

'If you come and visit me, you will continue that okay? No purging and three meals a day.'

I nodded again. 'Of course, I will be with you. I love you.'

I started kissing him but broke the kiss a few seconds later. I looked ashamed at my parents. 'I'm sorry, I-.'

My brother giggled. 'Not going to lie. You two are really cute together.'

My mum smiled a little. 'It's fine, Clay. We accept you. When we walked in on you kissing we didn't see it coming at all. If you kiss him, I'm fine with that.'

I grabbed George hand and we sat down in the living room. They couldn't see us here and I started kissing George.

'I will visit you as quick as possible,' I mumbled through the kiss.

He laid down and pulled me with him, still kissing.

'I love you,' George muttered.

When we heard footsteps we quickly broke apart and my brother sat down next to us. I rolled away from George and sat up, looking at my brother.

'What's up?'

'I have a girlfriend,' he said happily.

'Really? That's sick man.'

'I met her at a party, we were the only ones sober and we started talking. I guess we started liking each other.'

'What's her name?'

'Eva.'

'Congrats, bro.'

'You two too.'

'Thanks,' I said remembering I was holding George tightly. 'Are you okay with this?'

He nodded. 'Of course, I don't mind that your gay or bisexual or whatever.'

I smiled. 'Thanks, dude.'

'I'll give you two some privacy,' he said walking away.

I hugged George tightly. 'I love you too.'

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