Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Mentions self hate and suicidal thoughts

'Dream!'

I startled and looked up. I was crying and apparently screaming. George held me close and Sapnap kneeled down next to me, holding my hand.

'What's wrong?'

'I had so much negative memories suddenly and I started panicking.'

'What memories, Dream?'

'Bullying and more.'

'Tell us.'

'They would constantly tell me I'm fat and I had to die.'

'What other memories?'

'I- traumas and uh- how I tried killing myself.'

Everyone went completely quiet. George had tears in his eyes and Sapnap hugged me.

'Never do that again,' he whispered.

'I'm trying, but life is so dang difficult. I hate it, I can't even normally eat. I can't do anything, I just fail in life.'

'You are so extremely strong. You can do this with our help. You're not fat at all.'

'Not fat, but my head wants to be too thin.'

'You are pretty close to that. Your bones are sticking out.'

'No, you're lying just to make me feel like I'm thin enough to gain.'

'Dream, you're not seeing it, but we do. You're bones are sticking out and you're very thin. You might have a healthy weight, but not for your body. You're way too thin,' George said.

'No, I'm not. You're way thinner.'

'I'm not Dream, I'm might have a tiny figure, but my bones aren't sticking out.'

'It's just not true.'

'But it is, you don't see that, because of your body dysmorphia. You see yourself fatter than you actually are.'

'I don't.'

'Dream, look at me.'

I looked in George beautiful eyes. Why was he this handsome?

'You're very thin. Even if you were fat, you would still be my best friend ever. It doesn't matter, Dream.' He sighed a little. 'I love you, Dream.'

And at that moment I started crying. 'I love you too.'

I felt myself blushing as he smiled. He was so cute.

'The moment again?' Sapnap asked.

I startled.

'Oh, yeah are sitting here staring at each other for two minutes. I was waiting for you two to kiss, but-.'

'Sap!' George yelled. 'We weren't about to kiss.'

'Unless?' Sapnap grinned.

'Sap!' I now screamed too. 'Stop it. We are not going to kiss.'

'Yeah, sure.'

'I'm straight,' I muttered, but whilst I was saying it, I felt a weird feeling. I doubted what I said.

'Same,' George said. He looked at his hands and blushed.

'Yeah, and I'm didn't fail maths.'

Sapnap directly and started running away. George stood up and ran behind him. I started laughing. George made Sapnap fall and started punching him softly.

'What did you say?'

'Nothing, forgive me,' Sapnap laughed playfully. 'Wait, I can easily take you both.'

'Both of us? Definitely not,' I grinned.

I stood up and walked to them. I was still a little dizzy, but after I ate something this morning I felt a little better. Sapnap lifted George up with ease, I started walking away.

'You will break if you lift me up,' I grinned. I walked to George who was throw on the couch. Before I could help him up, I felt hands around my middle. I got lifted up too and throw on the couch.

'I broke so badly,' Sapnap said sarcastically.

I grinned and looked at George. 'Did we just let this happen?' I wheezed.

'We did.'

'Come, fight me then,' Sapnap laughed.

I stood up and so did George.

'Dude, I'm so weak,' I grinned.

'That's why you need those calories, dude.'

I could laugh about his comment. Normally it would make me mad, but he had a point. George started punching Sapnap again, but he didn't even move.

'I'm the strongest and thickest here,' he wheezed.

I started laughing. 'You're so weird.'

'Jealous?'

I shook my head. 'No, no.'

He started fighting George and George fell down, I tried helping him, but I got pushed down too. I fell on top of George and we both directly blushed. I didn't know how to move anymore. I looked him in the eyes and smiled.

'You're so-.' I stopped myself.

'So what, Dream?' Sapnap smirked.

I startled when I realised our position and I rolled away.

'I-I'm sorry,' I mumbled.

Why the hell did I feel butterflies?

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