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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Suicide attempt

'Did we do something wrong?' I heard George ask.

'It's breaking me to see him like this.'

'We have to continue helping him.'

I stormed back. 'No, you don't. I'm sick of it. I eat whatever I want and if that's nothing, I eat nothing.'

'YOU FREAKING CAN'T DO THAT,' Sapnap now screamed. 'THINK ABOUT OTHERS.'

'I DO, I THINK ABOUT OTHERS WAY TOO MUCH.'

'You're selfish. We are constantly helping you and nothing is good enough.'

'I'M SORRY I GOT FORCED TO TELL YOU.'

'You break everyone around you.'

I looked at Sapnap. He meant it. He meant everything he said. I grabbed my shoes but Sapnap pulled me back.

'WHAT?'

'You're not going anywhere.'

I pulled away and threw my shoes through the room. I grabbed my phone and walked away. I threw the door shut in their faces and walked away on my socks. The ground was wet because it had rained a little. I walked further and further and I suddenly heard George and Sapnap scream.

'COME BACK NOW,' Sapnap screamed.

'DREAM,' George yelled. He sounded like he was crying.

I saw people looking at me and I turned around to go back to the house. I slammed the door and looked at them.

'WHAT?'

'You're staying here.'

'I'm going to my room.'

I walked upstairs and I wasn't thinking clear. I grabbed a little box with medication. I grabbed a few painkillers. I swallowed them all and kept going. Before I knew I swallowed eight of them and I started to feel a little nauseous. I grabbed a pencil and started writing.

Dear Sap and George,

I'm sorry, but the pain is too bad. I can't live like this anymore. I love you both so much and George, I think I am in love-

The door opened and Sapnap walked in.

'I'm sorry for- what are you doing?'

'Uh-.'

He grabbed my lettre and read it.

'ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF? What did you do? TALK TO ME.'

'I break everyone around me huh.'

'I didn't mean it, I was just mad.'

'You don't need me anymore.'

I grabbed the last pills and held them.

'Don't you dare. Don't do that. DON'T. How many did you take?'

'Eight.'

'Oh my goodness.'

George ran upstairs and I grabbed the lettre, hiding it behind my back. He wasn't allowed to read I liked him.

'What's wrong?'

'He tried killing himself.'

'I'm still alive.'

'Let go of those dang pills.'

I let them go and fell down on my bed. I was very nauseous.

'I'm nauseous.'

'Dream, don't leave me,' George suddenly said. I looked him to notice he was crying.

'I won't, I- I just- Sapnap is right, I break everyone,' I said opening my arms to hug George.

He let himself fall in my arms and I directly felt butterflies. I knew Sapnap would have teased me for my red face if we weren't arguing. George let me go and rolled next to me. He laid down on the other side of the bed and cried his eyes out.

'I can't live without you,' he muttered. 'How many did you take?' He pointed to the pills on the ground.

'Meh, eight.'

'Should we call the ambulance?'

'No,' I yelled. 'I'm just nauseous, if I'm going to throw up you might. Not now. I didn't take extremely much.'

'You took a lot.'

'Not enough to die,' I yelled at Sap.

'Dream, I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean it, I was just sick of it for a while, but now I'm fine again and you don't break anyone only yourself. Come downstairs. I was preparing dinner with George.'

Sapnap turned around and walked away, but George stayed.

'Dream, never do this again.'

'I'm sorry. Sap was right. I am selfish.'

'You're the least selfish person I know.'

'I am selfish, a liar, I'm just the worst.'

'I- I love you Dream. You're my best friend.'

'I can't be your best friend. I'm annoying.'

'No, you're totally not annoying. You have an eating disorder. That's just how it works in your head and whatever you do, you can't go against it. We can only help you by making you face your fears.'

'I'm trying so hard, but I suck.'

'You don't. When we came here you ate nothing and now you even try and eat the fries.'

I smiled. 'True.'

He hugged me and after a while he looked at me. 'Never leave me. I can't live without you. You're the best friend I could wish for.'

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