Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Mental breakdowns
-Mentions sexually assault

'Listen Dream. She was threatening me and she sexually assaulted me.'

'What?'

'She wouldn't leave, I really tried to, but she didn't leave. She started threatening me, she would either kiss me in front of you or she would swear at you constantly and hurt you so much. I didn't want you to get hurt by words, I could explain this, but words would have hurt you forever. I didn't want that, so I said to not swear at you. She took that as the other option and when you came in she started kissing me. I didn't want it, Dream. I pushed her away and not because I saw you, but because I disliked it. I'm gay and I wish to be your boyfriend again.'

'Really?'

'I like your messy hair and your cute clothes. I don't want you to be even thinner, I want you to be healthy. Stop starving yourself, will you please eat lunch with me?'

'I- do you like me?'

'I have always liked you.'

'Can I- uh.'

'What?'

'Kiss you?'

George smiled and walked closer to me, grabbing my shoulders to pull me closer. It didn't take very long until we started kissing, even though we were standing in the middle of the street. It felt like our first kiss again, but maybe even better. I grabbed his waist and our bodies were closely touching. I loved him so much, I was so scared of losing him. He broke the kiss a little later.

'I don't want you to change anything about yourself.'

'Really?'

'I love your hair, I love you like this. I only wish you were healthier.'

I kissed him shortly. 'I was so scared I lost you.'

'Me too, I have only cried. I missed you so much and you didn't want to call with me.'

'I'm sorry.'

'No, I'm sorry. I didn't want to make it seem like I cheated on you, I would never do that.'

'I trust you.'

'Please come in.'

He grabbed my hand and pulled my inside. All my emotions came out and I started crying. Tears streamed down my face as I squeezed a pillow from the pain inside. George just hugged me and it calmed me down a little.

'Everything is okay, I love you.'

'George, I was so scared. I want you to like me so badly and I wanted to do everything to get you back.'

'I never left.'

'Am I good enough? Even if I'm fat?'

'You're so incredibly thin, too thin actually. I wish you would gain a little more, sweetie.'

'I am too ugly for you.'

'Never say that again, you're so handsome and beautiful.'

'Can we please just kiss? I'm just so sad.'

'Aww.'

We kissed again and I felt a little better after. I noticed I had mood swings more often, but I was so incredibly sad suddenly, even though I was happy a minute ago. I cried my eyes out and George could only hold me right.

'It's alright, sweetie. It's alright.'

'I-.'

'Don't talk, just cry, Dreamie.'

I cried as he said to and I stopped ten minutes later, still grabbing him tightly.

'I love you so much.'

'I love you too, babe,' I said.

I saw George blush when I let go of him and I kissed his cheek. 'Cutie.'

He smiled and hugged me again. He laid down and I laid down on top of him, hugging him tightly. I rolled away from him and laid down on my side between Georges side and the couch. I felt my phone ringing and took the call. It was Sapnap again.

'Are you alright?'

'Can you cancel a plane ticket?' I asked.

'Yeah, why?'

'I guess he is my boyfriend still.'

'Is it alright between you?'

'He got sexually assaulted by that girl.'

'Oh gosh, that's bad.'

'Yes.'

We talked for a little and I went back to George. I startled when I saw him cry. 'I really didn't want to and I feel so disgusted.'

'How can I make you feel better?'

'Hug me.'

I hugged him even tighter and we both started falling asleep soon after. George stopped crying and within seconds we slept for the rest of the day, since we both had no sleep that night before.

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