Skinny Love (DreamNotFound)

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TW's:
-Eating disorder
-Homophobia

Sapnap came back to me upstairs and laid down in bed next to me. He stared at the ceiling and grabbed his phone. We both didn't really know what to see, other than that my heart was completely crushed.

'Dream?' Sapnap started after an awkward silence from five minutes.

I nodded as an answer.

'Please, don't eat even less now,' he whispered. 'Don't cut, please. Don't do anything bad.'

'I can't see him anymore, Sap,' I said avoiding the questions.

'I understand, we don't have to. I will stay with you and he can go wherever he wants. I don't need him here.'

'It hurts so much. When you said about me kissing a guy, I could only imagine me kissing George.'

'I understand, you love him. That doesn't directly pass.'

'Am I disgusting?'

'No, why?'

'Because I want to kiss the same gender.'

'No, Dream. You are not disgusting, I love you just as much as before. I might be straight, but being friends with someone whose gay, I couldn't care less. I'm rather friends with you than a homophobic idiot.'

Suddenly the door opened and George walked in. 'I'm not an idiot.'

'But you are homophobic so technically, yes you're an idiot.'

'Whatever, I will leave. Are you two now gay together or something?'

'Well, actually not at all, bastard,' Sapnap said. 'I don't know if you noticed, but you hugged Dream way more than I did.'

George made a face as if he was disgusted. I couldn't take it anymore and stood up.

'I might not be strong or whatever, but if you don't stop, I will kick you out of my house right now. Leave my room and come back if you thought about what you did.'

'I wanted to, but Sapnap swore at me.'

'You hurt me way more than Sapnap hurt you.'

'How do you know what I feel?'

'If we knew that, I don't think your parents would be very happy,' Sapnap said bluntly. 'They wouldn't want to figure out their sons feelings for guys.'

'CAN YOU STOP?' George now screamed. 'I'm not gay. I'm sorry, I'm down to apologise, if he is gay, fine. But I'm not gay.'

'Thanks for accepting it, but I still can't see you now,' I whispered. 'You hurt me too much.'

'How the hell do I make it up to you?'

'But shutting your freaking mouth and leaving me alone for a while.'

'Fine.'

He slammed the door and walked away. And again, I went back to crying. Sapnap hugged me, stroking my hair softly. 'Shh, Dream. Shh. I still love you. I don't care about you being gay.'

'All the beautiful memories we had together are just crushed. I don't even know if he is able to make this up to me ever again.'

'I know he can, but it will take him some good effort.'

'I still love him,' I whispered. 'Even after all this. I don't only love him, I am in love with him still.'

'I know, that won't fade so quickly. I think he is scared, scared of his showing his real self. It can be that he is gay too, but he just doesn't dare showing it, since his parents are homophobic. I never noticed George being a real homophobe, he might just be scared.'

'Of what?'

'His parents, he still lives with his mum. What if they find out he is gay?'

'Don't give me hope, he is straight.'

'He is either straight or scared.'

I sighed. 'I love him too much.'

'I know you do, Dream. This will fade. Either your feelings will fade or the fight will fade.'

'Will we ever be friends again?'

'We will, our friendship is strong. We will work this out, we definitely will. In what way I don't know yet, but we will. Our friendship is so strong. Even if we will never be friends anymore, I will stay at your side, Dream.'

I hugged him, but let him go shortly after. 'I don't like you like more than friends.'

He hugged me tightly against his body. 'Even if you did, I wouldn't care. I'm not scared if you hug me, I'm not homophobic.'

'Thanks, Sapnap.'

'No problem, you're still my friend.'

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I'm really tired so I didn't take out all mistakes I think sorry