Lethal

Prologue

Word count: 1195

Sapphire's P.O.V

I was getting all my stuff together and since I was anxious I seemed to drop everything. Stupid clumsy hands.

Seriously Saph, I thought to myself.

"See you tomorrow Saph and make sure to text me when you get home"

"Don't worry Mia. I'll call you when I get home.....see you tomorrow." I rolled my eyes at how protective she was.

I waved goodbye to my best friend as I left the office. It was awesome how both of us have been friends since we were 5 and now we even managed to get a job together. Life definitely works in strange ways. A bitter laugh left my lips as I thought about the sick game life had played with me.

I started to head out of the office and I already knew it was going to be cold outside so I pulled my thick and fluffy coat closer to my body as I walked out the door.

The cold air of December was cutting against my skin as I started to walk quickly. I got out of work late today which meant that I wouldn't get as much time as I would normally like.

Since it's December, the dark blue sky had already started to turn a pitch black colour which perfectly reflected what I was feeling. The stars shined beautifully in the sky like diamonds. I looked up at the stars and smiled as a drop of water from the sky fell on my cheek. The cold raindrop felt good against my fiery hot skin.

I had made sure to pick up my flowers from my desk before I left the office. I had got them this morning since I knew we were going to end up working over time. It had become a part of my routine to pick up flowers either on my way to work or on the way back. It was something I did without fail for the past 5 years.

My nerves were starting to get the best of me as I neared the place. My hands tightened around the steering wheel as did my heart.

The drive to here was one hell of a trip but every time it is worth it, I gave myself a mental pep talk before stepping out of my car.

I tried not to slip on the muddy grass because the light here was very limited. It was scary being here so late. But I had to come.

I pushed open the cemetery gate and it creaked. The gates groaned as I pushed them fully open, they were coming to their end too, as does everything at some point.

The sad thing here was that no-one really came to this cemetery any more. It was the old one, they had built a new one many years ago so no one really is buried here. Most people who visit here are the elderly as most of the older generation is buried here.

I came here every week as a child with my family and now if I didn't come here my heart felt incomplete. As I walked in I placed flowers on all of the graves and there were some graves which had dirt on them, so I brushed my hand on them and cleaned them.

As I came closer to the last few graves my heart started to beat louder, the nerves were starting to get the best of me. I tried to calm my breathing but every week, every time I came here my heart ached with a horrible pain, a pain that will never leave me. The pain had now become a part of me, it was sick how this very pain was my source of comfort. It was always there to remind me that one day it will all be over.

I promised myself not to cry, to be stronger but sometimes no matter how hard you try, you can't just get over it. The cemetery is a place in which you feel so close to everyone, yet so far. It reminds you that even though a person may not be alive they are still here. But it also reminds you that they will never come back no matter how hard you try and that is the worst feeling in the world.

I never understood what grief really was as a child, I thought the emotions I felt back then were the worst but the worst had yet to come. When I lost Gramps a few years ago it hurt so much, but this pain was different it was as if my soul had been ripped out and was buried beneath the cold ground.

I placed the final red rose on this grave and I sat down near it. All the emotions started to choke me, every time I sit here, it feels just like the first time I came here.

Memories of the bittersweet year came flooding back to my mind. I smiled because I was happy it all happened but tears pooled in my eyes because the pain of it all, reminded me that nothing lasts forever.

No matter whom you lose it always hurts so much. It leaves an empty void in your heart that cannot be fulfilled.

All these walls you put up to show the world you are doing ok are made from glass, because all it takes is one crack for you to completely shatter to become completely vulnerable.

I always wished as a child I could turn back time so I could live the fun times again and do everything again. But now if I were to turn back time I would do that whole year again except stay where I was supposed to.

The traitor tear fell from my eye and down my cheek. It felt hot against my cold skin and I knew that I couldn't hold them anymore, I let the tears flow.

But the crazy thing is that I smiled while my heart cried. I'm stupid for crying but something in me broke and I let go off the walls that held back the memories.

For so many years I kept the memories away, I never thought about them. But right now every laugh, smile and conversation started to play in my mind, everything started to suffocate me, my entire body started to shake as a sob left me.

I started to cry really loudly and the sound of the thunder concealed the sound of my cries. The black night started to cry with me. The rain was pouring down and the wind was blowing so harshly reflecting the turmoil that was happening within me.

"Why me, can I never have happiness, why is it taken away from me like everything in my life. WHY ME!"

I shouted to the sky hoping someone would answer, my cries were loud and I cried out all the pain I had held for so long.

Here I was on a Thursday night crying in a dark cemetery all alone. Maybe I should start with how everything led to this.

My mind trailed back to 5 years ago...