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Ali's POV

Nowadays I have been feeling so...alone. People all around me, yet I'm by myself at the same time. I can hear the chatters from my friends,the joyfilled laughter from everyone,yet they all seem so distant. As if they are so far away.

I begin questioning myself. Asking whether if I'm really here or not. Whether I exist. Am I invisible? Because all around me, people are talking within themselves, and I can no longer remember a time when they really included me in a conversation.

I was always the one dragged behind,while everyone else was at the front. I was never invited over for gatherings nor parties,so I stayed home,liking every of their posts on how much fun they had. I did try to partake in their conversation,laugh more,but they always seemed to give me a quick reply,pretty much like-avoiding me.

Sometimes,I would even catch them whispering about me. As I sat with them,they would give me a constant glances,and begin leaning over to each other, snickering.

I found it harder and harder each night to fall asleep,sometimes not sleepy at all. I would lay in bed awake with my pillow wet, thinking about how my life crumbled to pieces.

If I disappeared,would anyone notice?

Would anyone miss me if I was away?

Would they visit me as I lay on a hospital bed?

The world around me is surrounded by people,yet I feel as if I am the only one here,waiting. I'm waiting for someone to finally come and pull me out of this loneliness. This endless black hole is suffocating and I don't think I can hold my breath any longer.

I feel as if I have been swimming in the deep end of a pool for days,my limbs are unable to move?

Calling out for help yet no one seems to come.

All my friends seem to be better off without me. Should I leave? Or should I continue? If you were in a pool,would you get out or let your fingers prune? Of course you would want to get out. So why am I having such a difficult time to do so? I'd it because I'm waiting for someone to drain the pool? To make me feel that there is a reason to get out? After all,you go to a pool to get in the water,not to stay out of it.

I recall the time when I asked one of my friends to hang out,only for the offer to be declined. I was fine with it,after all, they had said that they were busy. That was until I saw the post of them with their friends,hanging out and laughing.

I don't know if I can continue to stay afloat anymore. I'm so tired, I just want to stop.

So slowly...I began to sink down to the bottom...

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