Our Secret Dream

A whispered I Love You.

Tyler and I walk back into the house and I head straight upstairs and into my room. I grab a duffle bag and chuck some clothes into to it. I don't care what I take with me I just need to be away from here I feel trapped. All the emotions my parents would make me feel are rushing back to the surface. Drowning me, pulling me beneath the surface.
I grab my bag from the bed and head into Bryan's room he's lying on the bed doing something on his phone. He looks up at me when I step inside, his smile drops instantly when he notices the duffle bag. I drop it on the floor by the door and walk into his wardrobe grabbing a few of his hoodies. When I turn around Bryan is standing beside my bag at his door.

Bryan: What are you doing? You can't leave. You can't leave me. I never doubted you. Please.

Skylar: I'm not leaving you Bryan. I could never. I just can't stay here right now. I need some space away from Chris. Please try to understand and forgive me, it's hurts too much being under the same roof as Chris right now. He made it very clear that I am not good enough or trustworthy. I'm not good enough for you, your family, our friends even Dream LA and you know what? Maybe just maybe he's right.

Bryan: You are more than enough for all of those things baby, don't ever doubt that. Your honest, loyal, selfless, kindhearted and drop dead gorgeous, don't let his meltdown and bull impact your confidence or self worth-
If your leaving then I'm coming with you.

Skylar: No baby, you need to stay here. As much as I don't want to be apart from you, I won't ask you or let you choose between us.

Bryan: You know I trust you right Sky?

Skylar: I know Bry and you know that I would never cheat on you. But I have a lot of shit in my past that I haven't told you about and the things that Chris said has brought it all back for me. Demons I never thought I'd need to talk about or endure again in my life. I never wanted to burden you with the shot from my past.

I look away from him, scrunching my fists together trying to distract my brain from falling down the dark rabbit hole inside my brain that always felt like once I opened it and fell in I'd never escape but we needed this for our relationship and for me B needed to know.

Bryan: What things from your past baby?

Skylar: My parents. They treated me really bad, they'd neglect me most of the time, I'd sometimes go days without eating. On the days they did notice me it would only be to mentally, emotionally or physically abuse me. You know when shot goes wrong in your life they'd hit me and mentally manipulate me. They'd actually have me believing that it was my fault like I'd been asking for the abuse. Both my parents cheated on each other Bryan. I've seen first hand what cheating does to a relationship, Id never ever want to see the look of regret, pain and disgust in your eyes. When the other found out they'd take out there anger on me. It's fine, really I got them out of my life when I moved to uni but I still have the mental scares.

Bryan: Baby, I wish I had known. I could have stopped all of this. I can't believe you had to go through all of that. You know that I would never let anything like that ever happen to you again.

Skylar: It's fine Bry, I have always felt safe and protected with you. I just feel like Chris should have trusted me and known better. I don't let people get close to me because of my parents and I have told Chris so many things and let him get past all my walls and then this happens. Even without knowing about my parents he should have known me better. I don't let people in, it was always my biggest rule and I broke it with all of you and now look at me, I'm the one who's broken and hurting. Feeling betrayed by her best friend. The guys who literally saved me from being attacked and assaulted here.

Bryan: Baby -

Bryan steps towards me and wraps me up in his arms pulling me close to his chest. Nothin he can say to me right now if going to make me feel better or fix this whole situation so we just hug in silence. I start to cry again, Bryan stokes my hair keeping me close. Painful sobs escape my lips and Bryan 'shhh's me to try and smooth me. I press my face into the crook of his neck and whisper against his skin 'I love you' breathing in his cologne. I try and save the smell to memory knowing that I'm not going to be with him for the next couple of days. I pull back and press my lips against his. His lips are soft and gentle against mine. I break away from him grabbing my duffle bag of the floor and put his hoodies inside.

Skylar: I'm going to Quinn's for a couple of days, I'll call you soon baby. I hope you can understand why I need to do this.

Bryan: I get it kitten, I just wish you'd let me come with you. I'll miss you so much baby.

Skylar: I'll miss you too bubs. See you soon, promise.

I walk out of the bedroom, our hands still together. With ever step I take our grasp becomes weaker, my fingers slipping from his.
I walk down the stairs and go to Mel's office, knocking on the door. When she calls out I open it and step inside.

Mel: Sky? Is everything okay?

I shake my head, fresh tears falling down my face. Pain and so many other emotions written across my face.

Skylar: Everything's a mess Mel. I feel so betrayed. I actually think everything's fucked up beyond repair.

I walk over to the sofa and sit down letting the bag fall to the floor. I sigh heavily in between my hushed sobs. Mel comes to sit beside me. Taking my hand in hers, squeezing gently.

Mel: What's happened? Is it you and Bryan? Or Does this have anything to do with the argument Bryan, Tyler and Chris's had earlier?

Skylar: Chris accused me of cheating on Bryan. I went on a run Mel. Then I went to stop by my new house. I told Bryan last night about everything, I wasn't ready for everyone to know just yet. It wasn't like I was going to be moving in for a few more weeks anyway. Maybe I should have left a note but B didn't care he knew I'd never cheat on him and yet Chris just lost his shit with me.

Mel: Oh Sky. You didn't deserve any of this. I'm not going to sit here and try to decent Chris, he is my baby boi but you Sky are my daughter. It breaks my heart to see you this upset. I know it feels like everything is fucked up right now but I promise you it will get better and I think everything will sort it's self out. Just make sure you take some time to focus on you, you do so much for everyone else that you forget to look out for you.

Skylar: I wanted to stop in before I left for a few days, it I'm going to focus on me then I can't be here. As much as I am going to miss Bryan and gate bring away from him I can't stay and I'm not going to let him choose between us. I also wanted to tell you my decision, about your offer to join Dream.

Mel: It can wait Sky, you've got a lot happening right now. You might not be thinking straight. I don't want you to later regret this decision.

My tears have stopped now and I finally gave my breathing under control. Mel hands me a tissue and I dry my eyes.

Skylar: I've decided to join as a creator Mel, I just want to ensure that I have all the freedom and flexibility I had back in England.

Mel: Of course Sky. I will get a contract written up for you to review, whenever your ready. There is no rush my gorgeous girl.

Skylar: I'll be back in a couple of days Mel. Can we not tell anyone about this conversation just in case anything changes. I'm not sure if I'll want to move back in here.

Mel: Of course Sky but remember Bryan lives here so you'll have to be here sometimes.

Skylar: I know Mel.

I give her a hug and gather my things to leave.