Our Secret Dream

Returning To Dream LA

Bryan has been staying with me at Quinn's for the last three days. I know that it started cause we missed each other and we hated being apart but as the days have pasted I've realised that Bryan needed an escape from the house too. All of this crap thats happened as been really hard on him. We've been hauled up in the spare room watching movies and eating food. Since Bryan's been with me I've actually been eating and getting some decent sleep. I don't think I realised how dependent I'd become on him, especially at night.

Bryan asked me some questions about my parents following on from what I'd told him the night I left Dream. It was uncomfortable talking about all the shit that had happened but I am glad he knows everything. I can finally be 100% free with him now. No secrets or darkness clouding me from my past. I even feel closer to him than I was before. I didn't even think that was possible. The more I opened up about my parents and the abuse I endured the more Bryan understood why I reacted the way I did and why I am struggling to process and move on from the feeling of betrayal.

Bryan has also been such a great support and help with my new place, he has helped me order a lot of essential items to help make the transition easier. I still have so much left that I need to organise but for right now we have made a start. Even if the new place is just mine, I want it to feel like a second home for him too. Who knows maybe one day B will move in with me.

Alas for now we've agreed that Bryan will keep a lot of his stuff at my place so we will each always have clothes at both mine and Dream LA - this will help make things easier and it's a good step for us to take together as a couple.

I have to admit, I've been anxious since Bryan came over remembering those three words I whispered against his neck that night. I thought he might have heard me but he couldn't have as he hasn't said anything. Or maybe he did but doesn't feel the same. Just the thought of the love I have for him not being reciprocated makes me feel weak like glass that's about to shatter. 

All I want to do is go back to normal but I'm not ready to speak with Chris, I'm not sure if I will ever be ready. No, that's not true deep down I know at some point I will have the strength within me to have the much needed conversation.

**A few hours later**

Although, I am still hesitant I have agreed to go back to the house today with Bryan but I have said he is to make it very clear that I don't want anything to do with Chris. Once I have everything packed up and am ready to go, I say goodbye to Quinn and thank her for everything she has done for me this last week.

Quinn: You don't have to thank me sweets, your my best friend I would do anything for you. Even spend another night in jail for kicking someone's ass.

I laugh the memories of that night coming back to the for front of my mind. It was just after Taylor and I had broken up and we'd gone clubbing. We'd both drank a lot and some guy tried it on with me. When I tried to shove him off he got aggressive and Quinn managed to come to my rescue. She kicked him square in the balls, followed by a slap across the cheek before he fell to the floor. Just for good measure though she leaned over him and poured her margarita in his face. We got kicked out my the bouncers and then the police turned up.

Skylar: Just like I'd spend another night in jail for you. I appreciate you fighting for me.

Quinn: Always. And if it's too much in Dream you will always have a place here with me.

Skylar: Thanks Quinnie. I love you.

Quinn: I love you sweets.

Quinn pulls me into a hug. Before she lets me go she looks at Bryan and gives him a sturdy warning.