Our Secret Dream

It's the Feeling of Betrayal

It's been nearly four days since I came to stop with Quinn, other than speaking to Quinn, Bryce and posting about my new single I haven't really bothered to interreact with my fan base or the boys. I guess I have been trying to avoid the world and give myself time to process what I am feeling. I'm missing Bryan like crazy, this has been the longest we have both gone without talking to each other since before we actually started talking. I miss him with every ounce of my being and yet I am the one stopping myself from seeing him. I have good reason for why I am doing it but yet I just want to be selfish and cuddle with my baby.

Bryan as usual has been nothing but sweet, caring, forgiving and beyond understanding this week. Everyday he has texted me just letting me know he's thinking about me, I check them when I get the notification but I don't open the text or respond to him. I'm in a funk. The type when your just all down and gloomy and you don't want to talk to anyone as you know your just going to sour their mood. I checked my Twitter for the first time last night and saw that he had posted. When I read the tweet my heart broke and I wanted to cry.

Today is a new day though and I feel lighter is my chest so I'm going to reach out to him but first I want to write a tweet too, trying to put into words what I have been feeling the past couple of days. My followers deserved to understand a little more about why I have been so inactive.

@bryanwilliams24 You'll be okay baby, message me if you want me to come over. I miss you ❤️
⤵️ I miss you to baby. ️I'll call you soon. ❤️

@thetylerschrage I've got you Sky-Pie, let me know if I can do anything. I can even bring you starbies and In and Out 💕

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@itschriswilliams I'm sorry Cookie!! 🥺💔
⤵️@bryanwilliams24 Fuck You Brother. Not good enough 🖕🏻

@brycehall Have you eaten today?
⤵️ Um....
⤵️@Brycehall You have to eat Sky!!!
⤵️I'll eat something later, Promise ❤️

@Domyan4eva Hope you okay Skylar sending hugs 🖤
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I decide to have quick shower, I can't even remember when I last had a shower. That realisation is just grim. That's how bad things have been. I've not really been eating or doing anything other than watching TV and sleeping. I change into a red crop top and some light navy denim shorts. I open my phone and click on Bryan's name to face time him.

Bryan: BABY! He screams excitedly down the phone.
Sky: Hi bubs. I've missed you.
Bryan: I've missed you more. Are you doing okay?
Sky: I'm okay. Not ready to come back yet but I needed to hear your voice.
Bryan: Same. I've wanted to call so many times but I knew you needed time to think.
Sky: How are things at the house?
Bryan: Tense. Tristan, Dom and I have all refused to talk with Chris until he fixes things while Tyler is trying to keep the peace though he has made it very clear to Chris that he was in the wrong and he's not on his side.
Sky: I'm so sorry B. The whole reason I didn't let you come with me was so you didn't have to choose and now your not even talking to your brother.
Bryan: It's my choice baby. What he said and did was wrong. I trust you and that's all that matters.
Sky: I trust you too. It's not even about what he said anymore it's about the feeling of betrayal. I just can't shift it.
Bryan: I know. You let us all in. Let your guards down and he accused you of something that you'd never do.
Sky: Will you tell the boys thankyou from me, you know for sticking up for me?
Bryan: Of course baby. Have you eaten today?
Sky: Not yet but I'm going to post mates some In and Out soon.
Bryan: Good. Do you think you'll be coming back anytime soon?
Sky: Hopefully. Even if Chris and I don't fix things I can't stay away from you for too much longer I miss my cuddles.
Bryan: I miss them and you too.
Sky: Not to mention trying to sleep alone in bed makes me sad.

We blow each other a kiss and then we end the call. I feel a little lighter after speaking with him so I decide to make another Tweet, maybe this will get him attention.

@Tristanbvibin Cuddles are the best form of therapy. 💕
⤵️That they are T.

@thetylerschrage Come back soon, I can't eat another one of Bryan's pancake attempts. Not to mention our movie cuddle times. 🥺
⤵️@bryanwilliams24 There is nothing wrong with my pancakes! Keep your hands to your own husband and stop hitting on my girlfriend! 🖕🏻
⤵️@thetylerschrage Your pancakes taste like cardboard, Sky's are so much better!! Don't get jealous Sky loves my cuddles ;P
⤵️ @bryanwilliams24 we both know my pancakes and cooking in general is superior to yours baby ❤️. Except Italian food, thats when your superior. @thetylerschrage You are very good at giving cuddles. You defo in my top 5 people to cuddle with. 💕
⤵️@thetylerschrage What did I say bro @bryanwilliams even Sky agrees your pancakes are whack!
⤵️@bryanwilliams24 Whatever 🖕🏻 I can bet I am her no 1 for cuddles
⤵️ I do love me some cuddles.

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I laugh at the comments on my latest tweet from Tyler and Bryan, even during all this crap with Chris they are still able to make me smile. I post mates some food from In and Out, I order extra as I have a feeling Bryan is going to show up. A little while later their is a knock on the door and I get up to open it. Stood in front of me is Bryan with my food. I smile at him and jump into his arms.

Skylar: I've missed you baby.

Bryan walks into the apartment with me in his arms, he closes the door with his back and walks us into the kitchen. He puts the bag of food on the table and then walks over to the kitchen island putting me down. He keeps me in his arms holding us close together. I am never going to forget the intensity of this hug. I pull back and crash my lips to kiss. The kiss feeling eclectic from the moment our lips touch. I brush my tongue against his lower lip, wanting to deepen the kiss. He opens his mouth to me and we kiss passionately our tongues caressing each other. I move my head to the side, exposing my neck to him. He kisses my jawline leading up to my ear, he follows my neck down from my ear until he finds my soft spot. He kisses and nibbles the sensitive skin making me moan softly. I take a handful of his hair and tug his lips away from my skin.

Skylar: I knew you'd come.

Bryan: Of course baby, I've just been waiting for a sign that you needed me to come.

Skylar: I've always needed you bubs. I just didn't want you to feel like you had to chose between us and your brother.

Bryan: You haven't. Chris fucked up, I understand where he was coming from but I'm not going to let his behaviour ruin our relationship kitten. Yes I want you guys to make up and be close again but I am not going to pressure you. Chris needs to apologise and show you that you can trust him again.

Skylar: Thank-you. Are you hungry?

Bryan: Starving.

Skylar: It's a good job I ordered food for you too then.

I laugh move out from Bryan and off the counter. We sit together at the table and eat our food. Bryan catches me up about how everyone is doing and what's been happing back at the house. He keeps his hand on my thigh the whole time, I savour the contact. Going days without being able to touch this man has nearly driven me insane.