Our Secret Dream

Telling Quinn

A/N Strong language used throughout this chapter, skip if this makes you uncomfortable.

The room remains silent as Quinn patiently waits for me to open up to her about what happened last night. I have the feeling that Bryan already has an idea of what went down but Quinn doesn't have a clue about the shit that happened last night. I'm being tormented with what I should say, a part of me wants to just let ever thought in my head spill from my lips but at the same time I also want to hold out on letting the words pass my lips. If I tell anyone does this mean he's won? Or does he win if I keep what happened to myself. I don't want to relieve the crap from last night but I also don't think I can continue down this road of having to over come what happened. My mind is racing, too many thoughts, feelings and emotions swirling around my mind.

Quinn reaches over to me, taking my hands in both of hers. She gives them a friendly and reassuring squeeze. Such a simple gesture and yet it means so much. Together Quinn pulls me out of my thoughts and back into the now. It's in this moment that I decide to give let the words pass freely from my lips and not allow myself to judge me on what I say about last night. I know Quinn would never judge me.

I open my mouth and get ready to talk. My voice doesn't sound like my own, it's quite, timid, shaky, the polar opposite to who I am. 'I went to the restaurant and met up with Bryce, Taylor, Noah & Blake. I got there and Bryce introduced me to these two other Sway boys - Josh and Jaden. We sat down had some conversations and initially I actually thought both Josh and Jaden seemed nice, but as the night progressed I started getting this unsettling feeling in my stomach from Jaden. It wasn't like I hadn't spoken about Bryan and our relationship cause we had...I'm still confused.' I looked up at Quinn, levelling my eyes with hers. Her face was soft and loving, helping me to continue. My voice slowly steading out into my normal more steady tone. 'We got to the end of the meal and Jaden left the table to take a phone call. While he stood up and moved away from the table I looked up and he winked at me. Immediately my stomach churned and I looked away feeling sick from the gesture. I left the table and heading over to the bar and ordered a water. I met a fan and took some pictures with her and then I just stayed had drank my water....'

My voice cuts out and I hadn't realised the tears that had been falling down my face. Quinn looks at me with encourage and sadness in her eyes which cuts me like a knife. I hate feeling like this. So pathetic and vulnerable. I am a grown ass bad bitch. Not this emotional wreck. I pull away from Quinn and flop down on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. The bed rises and then dips again a few seconds later. I look over to my right and see Quinn lying next to me. I'm the first to look away. She opens her mouth and fills the void in the room with words of encouragement. I'd not even gotten to what had actually happened and I was upset. 'You know that non of this makes you weak Sky, I know you don't believe me and your probably already making a mental list inside your head of how pathetic your think you are because your crying but I want you to remember. Your the baddest bitch I know and you will never ever be anything less. Whatever it is that you went through last night its not going to change anything. I promise. I am going to be with you throughout all of this helping you move past it. Not to mention you have Bryan, Chris, Tyler, Dom, Tristan & Mel.'

The tears continue to fall but after a while of listening to Quinn talk and trying to fill the silence of the room I glance at her with an emptiness to my face, all fear gone. Leaving me broken, sad and wounded. 'Jaden found me at the bar Quinn. He started the conversation of normally, so I relaxed a little. I guess that was my first mistake. He complimented me on my dress and said I looked incredible. I felt so awkward Quinnie, I couldn't respond properly. My stutter came back.' I sigh giving myself some time to think about how to word the next part, the most critical part to everything that went down.

Quinn: Take your time Sky, I know that this isn't easy but it's important you just let go and let the words fall however that is. Don't worry about anything, it's just us right now. I'm not to judge you or anything.

Skylar: He said 'You know what would make you look better?' I was trying to get him to stop as I was so uncomfortable but I still thought I could defuse the situation on my own. He didn't though he just retorted back 'Your clothes scattered on my bedroom floor.' My mind was racing so fast but I finally managed to tell him to stop and that I have a boyfriend but he didn't give a fuck about any of that. He started calling me baby and saying crap like 'I can make you scream better than your boyfriend'. That's when he -

I was interrupted by Quinn screaming in pain, she shot up from the bed and screamed 'Don't tell me this is going where I think it is. I am going to fucking kill him.' She runs her hands through her hair in anger and paces around the room, from the bathroom to the tall windows. I watch her is shock, I know this isn't aimed at me but him and I know that I would have the same reaction if it was the other way around but I still needed to continue. 'Quinn? Do you want me to stop?' I ask in a surprising calm and confident voice. She shakes her head in response and tells me to continue while she paces around the room trying to calm her self down.

Skylar: So after I shouted at him and told him I had a boyfriend. Jaden put his hand on my waist, gripping his fingers deep into my skin through my dress. I tried to break the contact by taking a step back but that pissed him of more. I warned him again to not fucking touch me but he seemed to think it was all a game. Lost of crap was said between us, he said I was asking for everything to happen cause I was wearing a slutty outfit.

Quinn: Is this dude fucking dilutional. Who does he think he is.

Skylar: It gets worse Quinn. He backed me up against the wall next to the bar. It was in a corner so no one could see. He grabbed my waist again, more aggressive this time. I haven't even looked at my hip but I think their will be bruises. He moved closer and went in to kiss me. I swerved him which made him loose his shit cause he grabbed my throat holding me in place with one hand while the other grabbed my boob-

I'm cut off again my the sound of a loud thud, I hadn't even seen her move. I guess I was so lost in telling the story. Quinn had just punched a fucking wall, she'd made a dent and her wrist was bleeding.

Quinn: I can't fucking believe this Sky. I'm such a terrible friend. I'm going to kill him you realise that right. He will never work again in LA or Hollywood his career is fucked. Your pressing charges against his ass. Stay put Sky and finish telling me what happened I can't be touched right now you know I will do something stupid.

Skylar: I know Quinnie but after I finish we are getting ice for your hand.

Quinn: Fine.

Skylar: So he grabbed my boob and it really hurt he was doing it just to cause pain. Maybe that's what gets him off but it angered me all my self control and whatever else I had went out the window. I brought up my knee and hit him square in the ball. I watched him as if it was slow motion fall to the floor in pain, howling and rolling around like a small child throwing a tantrum. I stepped closer to him and them told him to stay away from me. As I made my way back to the others I started having an panic attack, I remember Bryce trying to talk to me and me begging them to get Bryan but then it all went black.....

To be continued in Quinn's perspective -