Our Secret Dream

Giving Them An Out

Together Mel and I set up the table and bring all the plates and dishes out, we decided it would easier if we did it in a buffet style and have everyone help themselves. Mel shouts for the boys to come down. We all gather our food and sit down at the table. With Zach out of town for a few months Mel and I sit at the heads of the table. After sitting in silence for a while and just eating our food Mel stands and raises her glass catching everyone's attention. Mel looks at me and I know now is my opportunity to tell everyone. I stand when Mel sits down and keep my eyes locked with hers. I feel like their something stuck in my throat making it hard to breath and swallow. My heart is thudding so hard in my chest I swear I can feel it in my ears. I haven't been able to look at Bryan the whole night so I don't even know what's going through his mind. I think this is the longest I haven't spoken or touch him since I came out to LA.

BRYAN POV:

I come down to dinner with boys looking for my beautiful baby, she's sat head down at the head of the table. I can see the puffiness in her eyes, meaning she's been crying. My heart aches at just the thought of her hurting or being so upset. Why hadn't she come to me. I would have made her feel better. I try to get her attention without alerting anyone else around the table but she won't look at me. I try to rack my brain over everything that happened in the last 24 hours and I come to a blank. Nothing had happened whatsoever so whatever it was that upset her was new and must of happen in the last few hours with Mel.
Mel stands from the table and for the first time Sky raises her head, her attention is fixed on Mel not looking at anyone or anything else. I look between them searching for anything to help me understand what's happened. They share a knowing look and Sky stands, bringing all eyes on her.
She looks pale, sad and broken. All the thing I never wanted to see in her eyes. My heart swells and breaks a little from how broken and scared she looks. I just want to know what happened so I can fix it all. What if she's decided to go back to London and end things between us? My mind is racing in so many directions that I have to force my brain to stop. I take a deep breath and bring my gaze up to my beautiful baby. Waiting for whatever she has to tell us.

BACK TO SKYLAR

I take a few deep breath trying to put all my thoughts together. Before I have the chance to  speak Tyler and Chris make a joke. I don't catch what it is but it was enough for Mel to  slap them on the back of the head and tells them to be quite or she'll get the wooden spoon. Bringing once again the focus back on me. I put on my game face and force a smile.

Skylar: I have some important news that I need to share with you all. I've decided to relocate to LA. (The boys cheer in excitement, when neither Mel or I join in they turn there now confused looks back to me) I give them a sad weak smile. I have a lot of new things happening in the next 24-48 hours that's going to impact everyone around this table and I need you all to think long and hard about if you want to remain a part of my life.
I take in a deep shaky breath before I continue, trying to stop my tears from falling again.
All my socials will be public from tomorrow, meaning my now following of 62 million will know who I am and where I am. Mel is going to help me hire a security team for the bigger events. I also had to fire my agency and management team today so Mel's going to help me sort out new management for here in LA. Once I have all that sorted I'm then going to look for a place, my own place. Even though Mel has said I can live here forever I can't, no matter how hard it will be to leave it's something that I'll have to do.

I stop talking for a moment at let what I have already said sink in. Blank expressions are looking back at me from around the table while Mel is giving me the look of encouragement to carry on. Even if my voice is shaking and my eyes are filling with tears again, I continue.

Sky: I know all of this is a lot to process trust me I'm still trying to clear my head of it all but with this happening so soon my life is going to change and I don't want to force anyone into staying with me. We have all grown really close over the last couple of months and I don't want to loose that but I wont force any of you to stand by my side and continue on this adventure together. I know it will bring a lot of stress to each of your lives. Chris, Tyler we would never be able to hang out just us eating way too much food and then acting like children. Quinn and I would never be able to just got to the beach without being watched or having pictures taken. And bubs -

My tears start to fall down my cheeks when I look at Bryan, confusion, concern and dare I say love written all over his handsome face. I need to hurry this up and get the hell out of here.

Skylar: Bubs, we will never be able to have normal dates, it will never ever just be me and you someone will always be watching. Even when your not with me your going to be followed and become more in the publics eye than you are now. So the choice is yours. We can be friends, boyfriends, brothers but its all up to you. I won't be upset with any of the decisions you make but everything's changing. Sorry for dumping all of this on you now. Thanks for the food Mel but I need to call my movers and speak with Quinn & Tristan.

I push back from the table and set off for my room, not the room I usually stay in which is Bryan's but mine. Once inside I lock the door, plug in my headphones and listen to some music. Trying to process all the thoughts running around my head. I hide in the far corner of the room, my back pressed against the wall. My knees pressed against my chest with my head rested on my knees. In the safety of this room I let the tears fall down my face and my heart slowly breaks. For Mel, the boys, Quinn and most of all Bryan. The man I had fallen madly in love with.

MELS POV:

My successful, beautiful Sky has fled from the table without a seconds hesitation probably looking for the closest room with a lock. I know how difficult that was for her to tell the boys and as I look around the table each of them are stunned to silence. Confusion and many other emotions written on their faces. I know that nothing is going to change between them but I understand why Sky wants to give them the option to walk away. I look over at Bryan who looks the worse out of the boys. The boys get up from the table and I pull them into a hug and tell them its all going to be fine.

Mel: Boys, I know all of this has come as a shock to you but until today Sky thought she had more time to prepare herself and have conversations with each of you. Sky loves each of you and only wants what's best for each of you. Which is why she is giving you each the option to walk away from the craziness that is about to explode in her life. Sky knows that her life is going to change and she doesn't want to burden any of you with that.

Chris: But Sky's family, why would she want us to walk away. We don't turn our back on family Mel. Besides everyone around this table is in the public eye.

Tyler: Yeah, we would never turn our backs on Sky.

Mel: Oh Boys, she's not doing it for her she's doing it for you. Sky said to me earlier that she didn't want to ruin or make your lives messy. She knows she wouldn't be able to go for pancakes with you and Tyler without being followed and Christ Bryan....I had the poor girl in tears talking about you earlier.

Bryan: Me? Why would she be soo upset about me? It's not like anything's going to change between us.

Mel: Silly boy. You are the biggest thing she has to loose out of all of this. Loosing someone you care deeply about is the hardest thing in the world and Sky is willing to let you walk away from her to ensure you have your happiness. Being watched so intensely isn't for everyone. She will be noticed everywhere she goes, a lot more intense than you boys are at the moment. Anyone she hangs around with or dates will become public property you'll never have a private life.

Bryan: I don't want a fucking out. I've known about her following since day one and it's never changed a thing. I would take a thousand days running from papps if  it meant we were together. Before today I had every intension of moving to the UK if she decided to leave.

Chris & Tyler: YOU WHAT! YOU WERE GOING TO LEAVE.... The boys screamed at Bryan after his shocking revelation.

Bryan: I mean I would have if it meant I'd be with Sky forever. I LOVE HER.

Mel: Then you need to tell her Bryan because she doesn't want to loose you, any of you.