⭐COMPLETED⭐
I might be troubled and raised in a household without love and affection but I can be sure that I will have it all at some point in my future.
For the first time in my life, I act on impulse, ignoring the annoying little voice inside my...
Even with everything that has been happening with the boys I nearly forgot about the release of my new single 'Waterfall Rain' it's a song I had recorded back in London. We had planned the release for September but with the changes to my management team and my accounts going public I decided to bring the release forward. Not only do I hope that it will take some of the spotlight away from my relationship but to also show that I can do more than just write, blog, model and TikTok. I'm grateful for all the support and success I have I just miss the privacy I guess but I signed up for all this so I'll get used to it. It should also give me something else to focus on for the day and not be feeling so sorry for myself with all this crap with Chris.
I have an hour before the single is release on all streaming platforms, to help with promotion and to give my followers a heads up I decide to create an insta post.
@ItsSkylarRivers
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'I bet you guys didn't know I could sing....My first single Waterfall Rain will be released in an hour! Available on all streaming services. Pre-Order Now!'
@thetylerschrage Kept this a secret Sky-Pie....I already know it's going to be amazing. ⤵️ You know the vibes Tyler besides it's not like you haven't heard me sing. ❤️
@tristanbvibin Can't you leave something for the rest of us to be good at? Why you got to be so perfect 🤩 ⤵️ I am far from perfect T but I appreciate the hype.
@bryanwilliams24 Always knew my baby would release music. Your incredible baby and I'm glad the world will get to see this side of you. 😍 ⤵️ Thanks bubby. ❤️
@itschriswilliams Great Work Cookie! I already know this is going to blow up!! 🤯
@brycehall Why am I only just hearing about this?🤔 ⤵️ Sorry Bryce, guess it slipped my mind with everything thats happening. 🤕
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Even with everything thats happened with Chris I'm not going to let it ruin this huge moment for me. It's important that I try to celebrate this with my followers, family & friends. If I didn't have all those people in my life Waterfall Rain would never have been written. I need to try and fix things with the boys soon and get back to normality I have to start recording again ready to release another two singles before the end of October. I have them written, I just need some studio time. But to do that I need to have a clear mind, something that I am far from right now. If I tried to record right now the tracks would just flop and sound crappy.
My whole body feels like a shell of it's former self. My heart and my mind are aching, the type of ache that makes your chest tighten so much that when you breath you feel a stabbing pain. My mind feels like it's running a marathon, thousands of emotions and thoughts running around in circles trying to drag me down into the abyss.
I lock my phone and put it on the side, I walk out and over to the sofa snuggling under the fluffy blanket. I swear if I spend anymore time in this spot I am going to leave it with a body indent meant. I put on Netflix and decide to watch Gilmore Girls. I've seen every episode at least five times but I still enjoy them. Almost as must as when I saw them for the first time.
I always wanted to have that type of mother daughter relationship that Roary and Lorelai had but that would actually entail my mum giving a shit about me, which she didn't. My dad was the exact same. I was never really sure why they had kids, it's not like they are capable of loving someone other than themselves and even that's debatable....
