i know i should study but i crave my only escape right now: writing. you know what i mean, right?
i'm on someone's close friends list. i mean this person has a way to control how i feel, right? i KNOW i sound effing pathetic but ALLOW ME TO. okay?
like: sometimes your online actions show me so clearly you don't care like i would've liked you to, but other times you make me feel so special that--i''ve absolutely no words. you know? that would've been the worst feeling ever, but i'm used to so much shitty stuff that i don't care, really. i am, like, numb? literally numb. absolutely disconnected with my feelings. you know? even if i do cry, i don't really know why?
that's probably it. okay, bye.
